I make myself sick over things that I can't change. I am so affected by things, it's ridiculous. And I have tried and TRIED, to ignore, accept them, just, so many things. And I can't. It still destroys me. Hopefully it'll stop, or else, I honestly don't know. I'm dying inside. Literally.

Goodnight.

So, since last time I wrote, me and him were okay. Fights on and off, etc etc. Now this sucks. I broke up with him cause I was really upset, then my Mom came down after I hung up, and we talked, and she sorta got all "this is over ( Read more... )

We're on a break. For a week. It doesn't feel right. I feel like we're both just alone now. "Alone". I feel like the reason we were fighting is because- we just don't know when to avoid a fight. Once we do, it's all down hill from there. Everything gets brought back, every other fight, everything else we said months ago is used to defend ( Read more... )

Hello people. I'm sure you're all glad I'm back. Especially Marg... So yeah. I am BACK. I just drank some tea, it's cold. I'm stuck here inside in the winter so I'll wind up writing alot. It's really fall, but HEY, who cares. You know what I mean ( Read more... )

Yum. Just a tad, like, the tinyest amount of it is so yummy. I hope Chris doesn't get mad at me. It was juut like a few sips, her Dad kind of insisted... Apparently when you turn 18 you can get shitfaced and it's cool with your family ( Read more... )

Yeah, today I went to the doctor's, checked up on my meds and such. Then my mom, brother, sister, and me went to Bertucci's... I ate some salad and a little bit of my sister's pizza. I had a Shirely Temple too. Yummm ( Read more... )

Don't expect an update, it's too early in the morning for such a thing. But I'll explain later ( Read more... )

I wrote a big entry that got deleted. I refuse to re write ( Read more... )

Got back from work and I am so beat tired.... Vaccumed the store with the huge vaccum bigger than myself today! FUN! FUN!... NOT!!!!!!!! NOT!!!!!!!! lol... I work tomorrow as well ( Read more... )

Let me update about yesterday ( Read more... )