so it's nearly five A.M. I'm sitting smoking a cigarette. Still in shock on being on the outside. I feel like i'm outside. It's really shitty how i can feel so awkward in my own home. I care about my family SO MUCH but i cant take alot of what they dish out at me. John and I are Officially Over. Too much emotional stress honestly. I just ( Read more... )

yeah it's been a while. Everything is changed and alot more is going to be changed. Well it's been a crazy turn of events these last 6 months and i'm here able to type from the privacy of my own home on a miracle from the big man himself! :) I'm so excited and hopefully I continue to walk this differnt road. write more later people.

the scent of freedom is close... My crawling skin is finally trying to settle. I just want to be content. I have been preaching it for years but i just want contentment. I dont want to be alone but i am alone and this hollow feeling is making me so tired and full of regret. Silent sobbs pour out of my eyes if you look at them deep enough and ( Read more... )

New Plans ( Read more... )

A little prayer to whoever goes out to my 7 week old kitten, Enzo. He died sometime today. His head got caught between the table and the wall and he slowly suffocated. I was asleep but i assume if someone would have put him back into the kitchen w/ my other kitten that this tragedy would not have happen'd.. I cry'd and today is just misserable ( Read more... )

i dont really know who me is anymore.. Everything is shananagins!!! Fucking Chaos. everything has changes alot of shit has happen'd just nothing important enough to discuss. I'm not crazy i dont think but i question it cuz everything around me cant be fucked up.. so it has to be me. I can't think.. there is pressure and everyone is beating down ( Read more... )

Well i havent gotten around to writing in LJ for a while now, and i just wanted to see what was going on.... So whats going on? Today is the first day i have been home in a while. Yesterday was SLAYER, HATEBREED, ARCH ENEMY, AND SWARN ENEMY. ((Jagermeister Tour)) It was awsome, got to hang out w/ laura, tweet, amongst other people i hadn't ( Read more... )

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Right now i'm on the phone talking to gee about lightsocket covers... it has been like 20 minutes of nothing but light socket covers and why they are such a great thing... Gee has a 17 month old child.... <3 Trystan <3... but yeah.. light socket covers...

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