I'm no longer eating disordered, and spend most of my time loving my body and thinking I'm beautiful, and then a very small portion of time feeling guilty for liking myself even though I'm 30 pounds heavier.
Feminism and my boyfriend were the only two things that helped me recover. I feel like they are contradictory... but maybe not because a lot of people seem to "get" eating disorders because of their boyfriends, LOL
many men can be feminists, despite what a lot of people think. Love doesn't mean subjugating your rights as a woman, it should enhance it and you are very lucky!
I hate dogs. There are maybe two types of dogs I like, the small quiet ones that don't move a lot or make a lot of noise (ie, cat-like dogs). I think it might be a phobia... big dogs scare me so much, but idk, just dogs as an entire species seem so stupid and slobbery and gross and useless. I judge people for liking them!
I'm doing terribly in school. I've never done this badly in my life, I've always been an A student and this year it just got too hard for me. I may be recovered, and most of my depression may be gone, but a few times it's just hit me how much I'm failing at life and it's making me feel suicidal. It's not just a notion in the back of my head, it feels like a reality now.
despite everything in my life appearing to come together, i just can't let go of this. i have an awesome job, a wonderful boyfren, a beautiful house and an eating disorder that is so ingrained into me i literally don't think i could live without it at this point. because really, what do people do when they're not obsessing over food/body/barfing?
Comments 38
Reply
Reply
Reply
Reply
Reply
Reply
Reply
Reply
Reply
Reply
Leave a comment