i went to a party on friday with my boyfriend and i got black out drunk and apparently hit on all these guys, fell down the stairs, etc was a complete asshole. he still won't talk to me and he went to two parties on saturday and sunday... definitely think he cheated on me. but ive apologized and i don't want to keep bothering him but what do i do? i can't focus on anything else and my stomach has been in knots for 3 days now, like eating me up inside. i already know i can't keep drinking like that, its embarrassing, but do i get down at his feet and beg? i have no idea. its making me obsessed and i just feel sick and want to sleep for weeks but i can't sleep at all cause i'm just staring at my phone seeing if he'll ever respond or call me. i hate myself because i ruin everything and i really just want to die.
i want to be loved so badly my stomach hurts. but anytime someone gets close i sabotage the relationship... despite what i want i don't deserve anything.
What the fuck does being a stripper anything to do with anything? It's a job like any other (money has to come from somewhere, 'cause it doesn't grow on trees..not even this day, damn). I would be a stripper if I had the body for it, why not?. Judging people by their profession is just bull-crap. Just the same as idealizing cops/firemen who in their "free time" are pedophiles. Yes, they do an important job, but..
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i hate myself because i ruin everything and i really just want to die.
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Please don't die, everyone makes mistakes. You're not the only one. Just try to deal with it somehow.
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but anytime someone gets close i sabotage the relationship... despite what i want i don't deserve anything.
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I just don't get this comment.
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