i love my boyfriend. but i'm miserable here and would give anything to break my lease and move back home, thirteen hours away. even if it means living with my parents again. and possibly involving my ex...oops.
i hated living in my boyfriend's hometown. so i convinced him to break our lease and move back to my home 22 hours away. his whole family hates me now. and i don't care.
on sunday night i got incredibly drunk with workmates and bumped into a guy from school i cant remember exactly how it happened but i ended up at his flat alone...we had sex and afterwards i freaked out and left and went to the flat of the boy im seeing...he's not my bf or anything but he really really likes me and is so sweet and would never hurt me and i feel so disgusted with myself. i never told him what i did because i know it would really upset him. when i got to the guy i'm seeing's flat he wanted to have sex so i did. i hate myself. this is the worst thing i've ever done in my whole life.
This is the same for me I can't believe it. It's horrible and scary. I'm getting scared because I see that time is passing by and things don't change and I don't know what to do.
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and possibly involving my ex...oops.
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everything you wrote is as if i wrote it!
even the dates are the same.
i'm feeling too old to be this slow in getting my stuff together :(
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You aren't alone.
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