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Rage and Blood and Dark Heart
Rage and Blood ( Read more... ) -
No Use In Trying...
As a single tear falls down my cheek,
my sadness and embarrassment at its peak,
Longing and pain course through me,
wondering why it just can't be.
Your use,
is no excuse,
for treatment like this,
throwing me in the abyss.
of tears and pain,
What do you have to gain?
I know I'm suppose to be tough,
but don't you think I've had enough? -
Disquieted Flowers
Quietest morning flower ( Read more... ) -
Frustrations of Hate- Yes, another damn Poem
You are still here,
burning into me, with hate.
But my love--infatuation is like a tumor
eating up my soul.
You act like I am a serpent ready to strike,
But deep down you know that's not what I am like.
I should run when I see you,
but you know I can't
I've given you my soul
Nothing left to owe
It all still stinks of my effects gone rotten. -
Confusion
Lost in thoughts like grains of sand in a dune,
I feel so Lost; afloat hoping to be found soon.
I miss completeness but did I ever really know it?
Fleeting moments of happiness
but how do you maintain in all this madness?
Irriatation abides through out
Calmness gone, I can only doubt,
Its return with my sanity intact
with hope seeming to -
The Flower
i am the flower, you are the weed ( Read more... ) -
Forgiveness
I don't know who wrote this, but it seemed to calm me. After the whole ex-bf thing, I needed some calm ( Read more... ) -
Death, life, addictions
I really am just as sick as all of you about talking/ hearing about my health. I really, really am, but I want to give an update which will hopefully be the last. Most of you know that I was very ill about 3 years ago and that resulted in 6 abdomial surgeries. That in combination with the 3 previous abdomen surgeries has destroyed my intestines and ( Read more... ) -
Yesterday was a good day... awww
So, in general I love my life minus my health issues and mental blocks. I have a beautiful, intelligent, yet sometimes difficult daughter I absolutely adore. I have an awesome, sweet, intelligent, thoughtful, did I say awesome already? boyfriend that is sooooo understanding of my "issues". We live in a beautiful neighborhood, and Katie finally ( Read more... ) -
The insanity that wouldn't go away...
Those of my friends that I talk to on a regular basis already know that I've been talking about having the weight surgery redone... if I can find a doctor that would be willing to do it. I know it sounds abit crazy and even dangerous, but I can't live like this anymore ( Read more... )