its been 2 days of being jobless and depression strikes. being home alone doesnt help either. kill me ( Read more... )

basically i just opened up.
and poured out my soul.

Pismo this.. today. and weekend.

lets hope its a good one.

i re pierced my belly button.
Bought some cute ass shorts.
my eyes are havy right now.

This heat. cant take it. killing me slowly.

2nd job. where art thou??

so krysta and i are goin to SLO today then going striaght thru to LONG BEACH NIGGGGGAAS. woohoo. this ccrazy bitch is leavin me in like ... less than 2 weeks so i need to spend as much time with her as possible. the night she told me she got a job there i cried until 120 in themorning. its weird i never thought we would get this close and now she ( Read more... )

he sais he loves me but why isnt that enough. why doesnt that satisfy my forever running mind when it comes to me thinking negatively.
Why must i always be reassured and then second guess.

im bored.
very bored.
i want to sleep.
but i think of a million things i should be doing.

im pmsing and i know how i get.i think too much and i blow things out of proportion and right now i feel like my life is slowly coming undone and i can only watch. i feel like i cant talk to anyone and im alone. everyone around me i cant trust. theyll use my words wrongly. i seriously feel like i have to walk on eggshells because of people. i have ( Read more... )

Well ( Read more... )

I shall run. and run.

because i feel huge.
Fat!
i hate it.
Im eating more and i dont likeit
where is the will power to stop
how come my once great small appetite is gone
and i cant get it back?!

i got an A on my speech on child abuse. woohoo.
exscuse my lack of excitement.
i took a nap, it only made me more tired

Its my 1 month hehhe ( Read more... )