take it
dont fake it
make it go away
fight it
dont hide it
the unborn are the ones who pay.

ill choke you
ill provoke you
ill make u scream in vain
ill hit you
i spit on you
you live your life through pain.

Official
August 21st 2005 Nic asked me to b his girlfriend.
Im not single anymore

So im emotionally fucked and so far ive said that alot. BROKE DOWN twice i dont mean a few tears i mean cried my ass off yesterday and if someone fucks with me i could cry again. Ill be laughing then hear a song and just switch into a diff mood be silent and just think or again FUCKN cry.

its my new fad crying. 18 years of holding all the pain in ( Read more... )

12:54 PM - I've found my way ( Read more... )

2:29 PM - Myself keeps slipping away

I bite my lip and look outside. Men with ego's are hung and left to die. Men burn because they unwillingly swallow their pride. Some run for their lives, some try to hide. With no tears to cry and an ego so high I close my eyes for one last time ( Read more... )

There are little moments in life where i take a step back and watch what is going on. These happenings give me hope for what is to come. Its an experience that happens in slow motion and as im watching I smirk and feel complete inside. Moments like these I cherish deeply and try to hold onto for as long as possible. The reassurance I get from them ( Read more... )

So i got a tattoo. Love it. Well actually i got two. Same thing but on each side of my hip bone lower stomach.
I must be super careful around my parents and hide it well.
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I feel extremely lonely. Empty. Lost. i went to the gym,  weighed myself - 125. guess i should be happy but right now i cant find a reason to be. I want to burst into tears but I am holding back because i refuse. I shall shove this to the side for a later day. That day i shall dismiss it aswell until i am face to face with my dilema and i cant run ( Read more... )

so its prom and im sick. AGAIN. fuck heads got me sick i dont know who but they will pay later. Im stil super tired and i have a fatty headache.

today will be so fun with jenny n  kyle i hope everything goes alright. I wonder what we'll do at prom? anyways ya this is my shitty update for now.

i feel lost in the prescence of a dieing lullaby, the wind of death i feel upon me ready to take my life in the blink of an eye, i resist the temptation of a bittersweet ending to be and hold onto the thread of this life that impounds me