Why do I want you so badly? What feelings and experiences from your type of relationship do I feel I'm missing out on? You make me sad at times; trap me in a lonely prison for days. Although solitude tells me a thousand stories of triumph and comes up with one reason a day why he's sweeter than you. Solitude, you're so good to me, how could I stray ( Read more... )

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This week and the last I've skipped a few classes. The more I stay out of school, the more I dread coming back; I just don't want to deal with it. Sometimes, thinking about attending my Monday class and  early Friday class makes me feel like crying. I often think of dropping everything. I do want at least B's in all my classes, but I wish I had an ( Read more... )

I feel pathetic. My efforts aren't good enough. Am I even trying?

Recently, I came across an interesting quote. It goes like this: "You spend your whole life stuck in a labyrinth, thinking about how you'll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to ( Read more... )

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent

sunrise ( I'm guessing 5-7 a.m.) I should eat lightly; things such as fruits and healthy fresh juices. I guess Ill probably be making smoothies then.

Sun Apex( midday, so I'm guessing 11-noon) I should consume my heaviest meal considering the sun will be at its strongest point, meaning nutrients is easily digested.

  I think I absorbed my sister's negative energy she carried just two days ago, because since yesterday night I have not been feeling my best emotionally. I've been very angry,. This morning wasn't a good one, as she started telling me how I was the one who made a big mess the night before in the kitchen, implying that my dad's wife was right about ( Read more... )

Last night was officially the first healing meditation I did. I want ( Read more... )

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Every night, I have immense trouble falling asleep. These days have been especially bad. My fears immediately climb to great heights in seconds, and I'm not sure how to deal with it. But I haven't only been having trouble sleeping: these days I've been wishing much success my way very soon, and to finally start doing what I am passionate about, and ( Read more... )