i miss my boyfriend.
i have no friends in hueneme.
well, i do, but he's not here.
he won't be back til september.
billy won't be back til february :( :(
i just had a very lonely lunch,
and will have a very lonely afternoon after i get off work.
le sigh.

well, my birthday is this tuesday. i am going to be the round, boring age of 19. i would be more excited if i weren't stuck in the god-awful state of mississippi. it's hot and there's nothing to do, not to mention my best friend here is leaving me tomorrow ( Read more... )

my stomach really, really hurts. my neck started hurting out of nowhere, too. add that to my leg that's been fucked up since the last couple weeks of bootcamp. ugh. I want to lay down, but first I have to walk through this INSANE mississippi heat back to my room. le sigh ( Read more... )

i forgot to mention
(meaning i haven't found anything else to do yet)
that i'm wearing boys' deodorant and it smells good.
also, so far, it works well.

hello world-- and haters (wouldn't forget you ( Read more... )

except for that one hater that likes to leave anonymous comments ( Read more... )

ok ( Read more... )

what are we doing?
what am I doing?

if it's meant to be
he'll come back
and he'll forgive me.
the best thing I can do
is to just let him go--
I know..
but I don't wanna do it
if i continue to push
he'll just pull away
I know in my heart that it's a reality
I didn't treat him like he wanted to be treated
I hope that he's not gone for good..

like samantha (sex and the city) says,
"the best way to get over a man..
is to get under another one."

amen.

it works. for now.
even though I really like this fucker.
:)
this other, old fucker makes me happy too.

Goodbye girl, because I'm lonely
Goodbye girl, yes I'm a loser
Goodbye girl, now if you're lonely
Goodbye girl, why don't you join me

Fuck you.
I deserve better than this.
How could you be so selfish?
You can't even meet me halfway.