Oooooh boy have things changed since last summer. I'm not really going to get into how they have, because it's a long story which is probably supremely boring to everyone but me ( Read more... )

Star that shit and bring that shit on because I don’t give a fuck if you know what I want or what yuou need me to be for yuorself and only for you and you alone. I want the only thing I can’t have and the past is ruining the only times I know cannot allow me to be what I want to be or where I need to see myself at in ten or eelvene fathroms of time ( Read more... )

Can't you just smell the nostalgia from the subject, journal ( Read more... )

This is unbelievable. I remember making entries at 2:41 in the morning like this last summer. Apparently I'm having a relapse. Of course, it's the drinking thing again ( Read more... )

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No 18 year-old should worry this much. Hell, I shouldn't even worry this much. But regardless, the sickening combo of physics, calculus, biology, and chemistry is enough to drive me mad whenever I actually think about it. I know I don't spend every hour of every day studying, but who does? Maybe I COULD do some more work, but I wouldn't ever be ( Read more... )

FUck all the shit that I have never seen in my lifetime and all the things that I will never be able to ddo. I'm sick of all the times that somebody does it all and everythin loves it because they're so wonderfula dn awesome and better than everyone else because they're opportunietes helped then becaome above the rest of us. THe wonderful thing ( Read more... )

This is why I'm pissed today, journal ( Read more... )

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