im really hurt right now. i went to go visit hunters grave and i feel like im doing the things that i need to do to get past this and move on. i've confronted all of my feelings of anger and hurt from hunter, because for the last couple months of his life, he ignored my phone calls and made no attempt to keep in touch with me after we had been ( Read more... )

i love you, christopher. i love you to the moon and back.

i CAN NOT put up with this shit

im getting frustrated with my situation. chris is getting aggitated with me but i've been out of it for the past week. i'm constantly getting fucked up with my friends which is not what i normally do. i understand how he could be annoyed with me, but i wish he would show me a little more support than drag me down with his almost spiteful comments. ( Read more... )

On Wednesday i thought it would be a good idea to drive down the the battery, which is one of my favorite places in charleston and write in a new journal about hunter. i thought it would be helpful but it brought up great memories that made me laugh and cry and cry harder...so i really dont know if it helped. I want to be around somebody else who ( Read more... )

i went back to columbia. went to hunters funeral, cried my eyes out, but then completely made peace with the situation at his burial...which by the way was the most beautiful thing i have ever seen. we all drove out over an hour into the beautiful country to bury his ashes ( Read more... )

you never ever realize how often peoples best friends die until it happens to you ( Read more... )

happy v day ( Read more... )

ahem..

to: everybody i have met in charleston

you guys are all sheisty mother fuckers and i dont care to even know you you
anymore

lately, i have been really surprised at how well i have kept my composure
maybe im growing up..
STD/AIDS awareness party was lame
i got free condoms but still lame
also, i think im going to get a new job. this one is sucking.
at least get another part time job.

i was thinking being a delivery driver for deromas.
and i can do the manager.
yes, im