stream of conscieness is a pissy way to write ( Read more... )

a twig nonetheless grows from a banch out into the open air, from a distance with your eyes squinted it looks as if it floating. twigs are existential.

i've been doing nothing lately
and thinking of nothing lately
but i have been writing and reading alot however its as though my brain is being squeezed with nothing in return

not to sound pathedic and preach about my former drug abuse, which i concur as being extremely STUPID. i will say that my medication is working! i am a bit happier, but i worry still and have my bouts of melancholy.  nonetheless, my uncertainty seems to easing away slowly, very slowly.

also i am going to alot of concerts in the upcoming months, ( Read more... )

"It’s your turn, really. All the people who’ve come to our gigs and picked up a guitar, all the people who say they’ve liberated themselves… I look forward to what you come up with."

carl barat, the libertines.

i wanna get drunk and make out with boys.

Why this drivel
We all know it all too incomprehensible
Give me that dollar to make me an amicable daughter?
Another tab in the morning with others
Hand me that glass with drowning water and jagged shards
But how strange would that be mother if I could actually smile?

A static soul so fixed, walks with a cigarette at hand along the wet pavement marked by those she eludes.
Wishing for someone beside her, with no bearing words but only the sweet and silent reflections of each others psyche.

I will sweetly assert my New Year desires

- No more drugs.
- Not so much smoking, but maybe a bit more drinking.
- Honesty
- consume less

i just want some stoned beach joy
what a smell that would be...

even though i have a car
im still crying
i feel selfish
and arrogant.