It has been a long time since I've even given LJ a thought, let alone posted here. In the past 24 hours I've taken the time to read all my old entries, and this made me realize that I wish I had kept it up. Its helped me figure out myself more than any amount of therapy has ( Read more... )

I know I haven't updated in forever... and now, in the wee hours of the morning, here I sit, filled up with thoughts, detached from emotions, and needing some place to sort them all out. And so I turn to LJ, hoping to make sense of what I feel: fear, and the need to hide ( Read more... )

I'm reminded of the episode of sex and the city where samantha lost the ability to have and give herself orgasms. Since the young guy, I've been incapable of orgasming. Maybe its stress or perhaps my subconscious is holding out for him--but its been almost 2 weeks and nothing: nothing but frustration. I'm thinking maybe a new toy...or maybe ( Read more... )

I am doing a B of Sc; which means I need 2 math credits to graduate. Since Psych Stats doesn't seem to count, and I already failed Calculus, I'm left with trying Calc again, boosting my GPA (by replacing the F) and hopefully getting my much needed credit ( Read more... )

I've never been good at emotions. I can deal with stress, I can handle situations where shit hits the fans and someone is needed to clean up the mess in 10 minutes before the folks come home and smells the feces. I'm that girl. I'm not, however the girl that can deal with floods of emotions, not the girl who can tell you what she feels before ( Read more... )

Got 4 out of 5 marks back and I must confess myself to be very dissapointed ( Read more... )

So this has been a summation of my life as of late ( Read more... )

So I'm sitting here in tears, on the edge of a panic attack because of the same topis that just yesterday brought me glee...the nice guy: Dale ( Read more... )

So the nice guy likes me and wants to do me... All is right with the world. :D

I'm posting this here more for my own sake than anyone elses (because I can't imagine too many people being interested in what passes for my love life). But I often find myself looking back in the journal for past entries, because my memory isn't as good as it should be. So I want to be able to look back at this time with fond remembrance that I ( Read more... )