Okay. Big news. All of my make-up work is... FINISHED. THAT'S RIGHT. IT'S ALL FUCKING DONE. Today I doubled up on my Adderal and went crazy. I worked for seven hours straight-- with a few cigarette breaks. I am so awesome. And I feel awesome! Fantastic ( Read more... )

Snowed in all weekend with Cat. Friday night sleepover... I'm not sure exactly what happened. Good things. Bad things. I'm not really digging life right now. Minor setback. I'll be back in good spirits soon. I hope.

Tie the noose and raise the cross-- the martyr has arrived! A desperate place for sympathy: it's all you need. A long list of ( Read more... )

I suppose today was a productive school day. We started watching 'The Village' in Classic Film. Yay! I love that movie. I finally understood a major part of 'Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf?'-- and I took the test. I think I did very well on it. I talked with Abe, my therapist at school, and told him about all the shit with grades and he's going to ( Read more... )

I have been working very hard in school-- and out of school. And I've actually been putting my hardest efforts into making up all of the work. I've written three essays-- a total of ten full pages of writing. I made up all the notes I missed in both history classes, which came out to be about eight written pages, front and back. I completed the ( Read more... )

School was very disappointing. First of all, my transportation system sucks. They were late picking me up both from my house and school-- about 2 hours of waiting in total. Fucking bullshit. Helene left at 10am, so I was pretty fucking bored. I mean, yeah, Mike was there. Christina was there. Rachael was there. But! No one to ambien bowl with me ( Read more... )

Life is very skewed and tragic. Especially now. I don't really want to talk about it.

I have rehab in a few short hours. I totally forgot about it. Thankfully, I opted to NOT get fucked up.

Rachael is really awesome. We really connect, man. It's hard to come by these days...

I don't know. I really don't. I feel really weird.

Last night was so fucked up. I talked with Lisa on the phone for quite a while and it was good times. But then Cat got upset... and I got upset out of nowhere-- severely depressed. I talked to Jess from rehab for a while because I was trying to make her feel better. I was pretty drunk. I cleared things up with Cat and everything's cool ( Read more... )

It just started. Just like that. Out of nowhere. The tears keep flowing. I can't make it stop. Like when I was outside in the fog, kicking the biggest dent in some car that apparently didn't have an alarm. Fog. Fog. Fog. It's my favorite. You can just... disappear in it. If I could, I would be a form of precipitation, so that I could hide amongst ( Read more... )

Rehab was going well today... until multi-family group. In response to having a drug addicted child, the father of one of the kids said, "it's like being Einstein and having a stupid kid." My ears seriously pricked up. I was so fucking angry, so I called him on his shit. I told him I didn't appreciate the analogy and that I don't dig ignorance. ( Read more... )

Breaking News: My car has met it's demise. That's right. The beloved Stratus passed away about two hours ago. Perhaps it can be restored to life, but... I am not feeling very optimistic about that. It needs a new battery, starter, and oil gasket. I almost cried when I put I turned the key and absolutely nothing happened. Sniffles and tissues ( Read more... )