I have lost, this is truth. And I am coming to terms with that. It came in the form of a few shocking realizations tonight. They're gone. Most of them. Either they went away to college... or they just went away from me. That's alright. It happens in life. I wish the best for all of these people. What is the point in being angry about something that ( Read more... )

Cat and I are now proud parents of a little baby teddy bear hamster named Claudio. So fucking cute! My cats are loving it. For real ( Read more... )

I'm extremely busy. Truckloads of school work. Rehab. NA Meetings. Finding time for my friends/Cat. It's so difficult! But I'm having a great time with being so busy. I find myself being so exhausted at the end of the day that I don't even need the seroquel-- however, I take it anyway, just in case. But yes. Things are going swell ( Read more... )

Last night was intense. I wanted to do something totally random and outrageous, so Cat and I drove down to Rutgers to see Liz and Rachel. Total anarchy. We went to College Ave, knowing there'd be frat parties galore, considering it's Rush Week. First we went to Pike, which was bullshit because it's just like having all the jocks and cheerleader ( Read more... )

Jill the sponsor is so fucking cool. We went to a meeting in Paterson and then out to lunch at Pilgrim. Rocking. I'm feeling good still... this new positive morale seems to be sticking and that is amazing. I am filled with love instead of hatred for everything.

I want to do something totally outrageous today.

I'm slowly learning how to shine.

Interesting school day. I'm so happy because I got a million chances to kiss my beautiful girlfriend during school hours. According to Mike, we committed homosexual acts in a CHURCH. We're going to HELL! :) Awesome. Rachael is pissed off at me... and I got really upset. I'm very confused as to what's going on with that. I hope I can talk with her ( Read more... )

Holy shit, yay! Guess who got a mother fucking sponsor? Ummm... could it be... ME?! YES. IT COULD. AND IT IS! I went to a meeting with Jill tonight in Montclair-- it was a really awesome meeting by the way... I totally understand Step Two now-- and afterwards when she dropped me off, I asked her to be my sponsor. She was like "Absolutely!". ROCK ON ( Read more... )

Okay, so today started off on the wrong foot. I was an asshole to Regina and she retaliated, which made me bitch about it in History class to Mike. Thus, I got kicked out for saying something like, "Regina can suck my nonexistent cock." Marian said it was time for me to leave and I gave her a cheesey fucking smile and said, "Gladly!". I talked to ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in a while. I haven't had time. Yesterday morning I had an interview with Drew University. It rocked hardcore. With my GPA, I will not get in, but there is a program called the CU. It's hard to explain, so I won't. But basically, I'd totally get into that. I'm happy! When I got home, there were fun times. Ambien! <3 ( Read more... )

Yesterday I took the SATs. I honestly have no idea how well I did. I could've bombed them; I could've done fantastically. I was very confident, but that, of course, could blow up in my face. The SATs consumed my entire day, except for Rec Arts, when I got caught smoking in the bathroom-- third time. I will probably be getting ISS. I don't really ( Read more... )