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lost.
i don't even know what i'm doing here. what is this really for? who is it for? how significant are the materialstic things right now? is that the only thing? when will i do things for myself? am i just doing it to please/prove everyone else? lost. stuck. -
i want you.
how bad do i really want you? what sacrifices am i willing to make? how hard will i actually work? it's killing me inside to not have you in my life. meanwhile i've got something great, but i'm still missing you, what i've always wanted, what i've always needed. i've gotta fight like hell. fight for what's rightfully mine before i go crazy.
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that moment.
those sporadic days. those lonely nights. those moments when you long to be in love again. when you dream about that perfect someone. when you've sketched out exactly who they're going to be, what they're going to look like and all of their characteristics. when you've made up several stories, situations and romantic scenarios you only see in ( Read more... ) -
backwards.
i feel like i'm going backwards. there's no way that i can revert back. i can't be "the old me." this is not the first quarter of 2013 again. get your mind right. focus. . .
i feel like scum. the crazy thing is, i want it. . .
as fucked up as it may sound, i want it to happen. for the first time, of the third time, i wanted it to happen...and didn't ( Read more... ) -
different.
a year from now, things will be different. life will be different. promise.
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law of attraction.
...is a mother fucker!
it is super real. speak it into existence! it's so crazy how things happen! not only must you speak it into existence so that the universe can receive it, but you must also put in some kind of effort/action. although it's my journal, but i don't think i'm even going to say what it is specifically that i'm talking about, lol. ( Read more... ) -
get ya mind right.
how you gon' win when you ain't right within?
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approach.
i have to learn how to say less. i also don't need to understand everything. people will always do what they want. i need to let them. working on all of the above, and thinking before i speak/respond to people. stop. step back. and respond differently than i typically would. working so far, but i must work harder at it.
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defense.
so, over the past few months i've been working on myself. a lot of personal development. one of the many things i know i need to work on is listening to people. i do listen, i just tend to always want to talk over them or immediately. also, just looking to be a better person, hence my entries from end of march and beginning of may....but now, i ( Read more... ) -
different.
crazy how much one can change in the span of a year. a year or two ago, at this very moment, i would be tearing up the streets with the girls. i almost can't believe i'm missing this moment. i'd be lying if i said i don't have the slightest care in the world. some things you just miss. i usually don't miss it, but this weekend? i do, lol. all good ( Read more... )