i am starting to find myself, i'm starting to put all the pieces together. i look in mirrors and instead of seeing all the things i want to change and all the things i hate, i see all the good things and i want to keep looking because i am amazed that i, actually, am this beautiful creature with cupids bow lips and touseled hair. i can't quite ( Read more... )

Is it weird that somehow I feel I'm a failure because I've gone on anti-depressants?

why does it feel that unless i tell someone about the things i think and realise, i havent actually thought or realised it?

time has made me realise that i will probably never be happy like i want to be.

dear ruth,
i love you. you are more amazing than you know. please try and listen to your friends when they say nice things instead of telling them that they're wrong. keep hoping, please, just have faith that you deserve an amazing wonderful life. you'll get it, i promise.
love ruth

indefinite hiatus. things have changed, i don't want this anymore. i found someone to tell it all to.

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On the twelfth day of Christmas, ( Read more... )

just fitted into jeans i last wore in first year when i was thin!! they even look okay. i am so happy right now - ive just finnished an essay, and i dont mind doing work for the other one i have to do. i am making new friends left and right and am gettin touch woth old ones too. ive started dating someone and its all good plus i have rediscovered ( Read more... )

you know, i've always been one to follow my heart instead of listening to my head, and it seems to always lead me to trouble. currently, i know the logical actions, the sensible actions, the actions that will steer things away from being complicated, the actions my head would have me take; but the soaring poetry of the happiness my heart tells me i ( Read more... )