LJ Idol Week Six - The Lightning Strike

[ohelectricshock]

Sometimes we become the villain of our own story. It's a curious thing, realizing that I have been an unreliable narrator of my own behaviour and decisions, of my own life. I have unknowingly possessed a destructive power to wound and shatter the same way I had been wounded and shattered. Weapons can be infinitely more dangerous when you don't

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[halfshellvenus]

the fact that I don't exist in their relationship because she doesn't know about me. It feels wrong, deceptive.
It was all of those things-- a man who wanted what he wanted, and to hell with everyone else, as if they owed him everything and he owed them nothing in return.

His indifference to your feelings, along with all his other manipulations... how can a person not all the more desperately want to be the sole focus of someone who seems to truly them (even if only for a few hours)?

[ohelectricshock]

We did discuss it a little, I was really torn about the whole thing because I understood that they had only interacted a few times but their relationship seemed inherently flirtatious and some part of it didn't feel right to me. This is all entirely subjective, though, because I wasn't present at any of their interactions.

I am glad that you can sympathize with me, though :) What you said was more or less exactly how I was feeling.

[dreamsreflected]

This entry made me highly uncomfortable in the sense that it challenged my perceptions and my own insecurities from a time in my life that was similar. Its very powerful writing. A very good read!

[ohelectricshock]

It is something that is highly uncomfortable for me to write about, and I'm so glad you are able to read it and still enjoy it despite feeling uncomfortable :) Thank you!

[uncawes]

This story just gets better and better.

[ohelectricshock]

I am so glad you are enjoying reading it :) thank you!