LJ Idol Week Seven - On My Way Home, I Look at Stars

[ohelectricshock]

I wake up in my own bed, exhilarated and drunk with passion from the night before. The Lodge is so far away from the city that my walk home from Mike's was lit by starlight alone, and I collapsed into dreams feeling alive in a way that I haven't in months

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[eska818]

-hugs-

[ohelectricshock]

*Hugs right back* <3

[itsjustc]

Alex really sounds like someone you are much better off without. It'll be interesting to see the next chapter in the relationship. What a dreadful time for you.

[ohelectricshock]

Absolutely, I think the hardest part was realizing that when I knew how good it had been between us in the past.

[eternal_ot]

I see a glimmer of hope in the last sentence..and hoping I'm right..:)

[ohelectricshock]

You are most certainly right :)

[jem0000000]

*hugs*

[ohelectricshock]

*hugs back* <3

[i_17bingo]

I find it interesting that, of all the couples I know who have opened and subsequently closed their formerly monogamous relationships, it tends to be the one who opened it that can't handle the jealousy. Sleeping around is not the same as poly

[ohelectricshock]

I know, right? I feel like during the months where he was pushing me to open our relationship I did so much research and thinking and discussing and reflecting and examining every thing about me that could possibly feel threatened in that situation. I felt like doing such an intensive examination of myself and my deepest fears and insecurities I grew so much and when it came time to open our relationship I was so much more prepared than he was. Both of us seemed certain that he was going to have more immediate success than I was, but when that didn't end up being the case it all kind of fell in on itself.