LJ Idol Week Eight - If You Leave

[ohelectricshock]

I have become a poison. Every word spilling out of my mouth is virulent, every touch flowing from my fingertips laced with toxin. He tells me how disrespectful I've been, how everything I do is permeated by a layer of distrust. Whenever we chance upon eye-contact he looks away. It feels like he hasn't smiled at me in months

Comments

You're great!

[raven_annabelle]

So much love, Alexyback! It's so interesting to be able to read your lj idol entries and see more into what was going on back then. I only knew the general story.

And I really love your writing! I like your voice that comes through, it makes for a great read!

Exclamation point! High five!

<3

Re: You're great!

[ohelectricshock]

Aw THANK YOU! I have been absolutely loving your entries as well for the same reasons. Love love love love.

[penpusher]

The feeling I get reading this is that Alex and Mike are both Magnetic Norths and you're the compass spinning wildly between them - a dizzying situation to say the least!

Of course, a compass is useless in a situation like that, and you are able to convey that through the text of the story extremely well. And you are so even handed throughout the telling, it's really an impressive achievement.

[ohelectricshock]

That is a perfect illustration of how I felt for a little while! Absolutely disorienting. Thanks so much for this, your comments continually inspire and encourage me.

[kajel]

Lovely. Good for you for sticking to your intuition. I am glad you feel stronger for this. hugs

[ohelectricshock]

Thank you so much. I am glad that I am able now to look back on it as an important growth experience for me and not something that I let wreck me. Hugs right back :)

[eska818]

I know this feeling so much, and god does it hurt. -hugs-

[solstice_singer]

Change is one of the scariest, but most necessary, things to embrace. I applaud your inner strength.