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It's been an obscene amount of time since I've posted in here. The reason? Being more emotionally stable and having no time on my hands. Well being at home for winter break has changed all that. I'm dealing with old issues again, although after talking to two people last night for a few hours, I feel much better. I would hope to be in a ( Read more... )

Random freewriting ( Read more... )

I'm so busy that I've become this mass, just floating around with no real thoughts occurring in my brain. I'm so busy that when I actually have free time I start to go stir crazy. I think I get bored, or feel unproductive and destructive. I don't know. It's been quite a while since I updated in here but I'm going to be a lazy ass and update ( Read more... )

I'm going through numerous anxiety attacks, have been all day.

I went to a Breaking Benjamin show last night. It was amazing. But something happened and I'm all confused and now I think I'm such a fucking idiot.

I HATE BEING A FUCKING IDIOT! Well I may be a fucking idiot, but some people can be total pricks and dicks.

My dreams have been interesting to say the least. They are scattered, as if someone keeps changing the channel. Last night the vision that was most predominant was a pair of yellow eyes. They appeared to be a hybrid of black panther and wolf. I don't know what it meant. I feel as if I am a curiosity. I feal fear, apprehension, and defiance. ( Read more... )

My dad's having me learn how to drive a manual. yeah right. It's been two weeks and I've gotten worse. I now stall at stop signs. I was fine with starting out on hills. I even didn't have to use the handbrake. Yesterday topped it. I stopped at a light and it took 3 of them before I could get going again. I hate this shit. I'm done. I've ( Read more... )

You know, my life is going allright at the moment ( Read more... )

Oh allright, let's face it. I probably wouldn't have gotten smashed. I have too high a "moral" standard for something like that. erf. Oh but it was good to get out. One more week! well as of Tuesday ( Read more... )

Mother dearest and I keep getting into rows. I hate divorced parents. She says she doesn't want to put me in the middle but she doesn't know that she has. I've been in the middle since they got the damn thing ( Read more... )