im a mess. i dont know what to think anymore. he broke me. :[

today was a lazzy day for me.. woke up and watched sex and the city. how wack haha then ate at pick up six with andy. and got me my chai iced tea. yes haha thot about joey today it fuckin sucks its over. he was too secretive for me. he was always around in the beginning but lately he has been missing. like i didnt exist. he hurt me and i had ( Read more... )

so today was awful.. i decided to call him blocked.. and then a few minutes later he texts me.. i think he knew it was me but oh well. we talked about the weekend and how i was doing cause i was too damn sick to function. and asked him what he did and he said a friends b-day party and he was fixing cars all weekend. soo you cant fuckin text me when ( Read more... )

damn i hate feelin like this.. i need to stop believing and trusting guys.. i need to be more independent from them.. but why do they make us go insane? how do you trust men again if some of them already stepped on you..seriously im focusin on myself.. dats it. just gonna keep it cool and just see what happens.. i thot we had something going on but ( Read more... )

today is July 5th. alot has happened since then,broke up with my ex.. a week later my best friends kills himself... and 2 weeks later my mom tells me she wants me to move with her to vegas.. HELL NO! so much drama in my life. I need to break away. and plus my ex wants to get back with me... and he goes and compliments other chicks? wow! i dont know ( Read more... )

so i jus checked when was the last time i wrote on here... that was 74 weeeks ago... during those 74 weeks i have been trying to find myself. through the course i met this guy named andy. it was great. i fell in love. now things lately arent so great. i just feel like he is still cheating on me.. well not technically cheating but flirting... what ( Read more... )

so as of late i broke up with steven, he lived too far and it just makes me mad that he has to smoke weed everydamnday and everydamn minute! so i broke it up. being single has no hassles and its great. not worrying about phone bills and money. it sucks to be in a relationship if the guy doesnt put in any effort right? damn and i broke my uncles ( Read more... )

so lately things have been ok ( Read more... )

today was fuckin troublesome.i tottaly cleaned and rearranged my room ( Read more... )

soo alot has happened ( Read more... )