Comments | ohgreedohyes: on feeling normal

ohgreedohyes

on feeling normal

Jul 06, 2006 01:31

warning: this is graphic and kind of sickening, but instead of keeping my mouth shut like i'm supposed to, i'm going to tell the entire fucking world because i'm not scared of what anyone thinks anymore.

( this is the same thing i just posted on myspace. )

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eight_bits July 6 2006, 07:12:21 UTC

I love you.

ohgreedohyes July 6 2006, 11:50:07 UTC

i love you. it was so good for me, having brunch with you guys the other morning.

i think i scared off/weirded out some people by putting this shit out there, but i honestly don't care. i don't know.

invisabeau July 6 2006, 13:04:28 UTC

The best way to scare off the people you don't need in your life is to open up to them.

I thank you from the bottom of my heart for letting me see you more clearly.

ohgreedohyes July 7 2006, 22:57:01 UTC

that was gorgeously put. although i don't know if need is the right word in my situation--it's confusing. i don't know. i feel completely normal lately, so i'm just trying to sort things out everywhere. it's still so surreal to me, the way i'd been the last few weeks.

and your kindness is touching. it means a lot to me that you take interest in things that are important to me and seem to understand that while the things that have happened to me do not define me, they do still affect me.

we should try and catch up over the phone soon. i should start having weekends off in the near future, so we'll have dinner or something in baton rouge. i hope you're doing well; i've been trying to keep up. i send my love.

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harbouring July 6 2006, 12:05:18 UTC

i love you. it's probably good you got some of this out of your system. i know that writing things down really helps to heal. like i said, email me your phone number, because i don't know if i have the right one anymore - and i know i don't have your correct cell phone number now. xoxox.

ohgreedohyes July 7 2006, 23:00:58 UTC

it's so strange. it did help putting it out there. i was going to disable comments because i didn't want any sort of pity because there's nothing to pity me for, but then i realized that the people that would actually read it would probably understand why i posted it, my honest intentions.

my cell phone number is 337.368.0000. i still can't get cingular to tell me how receiving calls from canada will affect my bill though, so it might be easier to call me in the evenings at home: 337.533.1993. just let me know when is good for you and i will set aside all the time in the world. i will also buy the phone card next time. i love you.

harbouring July 8 2006, 04:29:04 UTC

okay homie i still have your home number in my phone book, i just wanted to make sure your cell number was the same because i know you lost your phone. or something. i'm not really sure because i am buzzed, haha.

but anyway! hopefully i can call you sometime this weekend even if i can only say HELLO I LOVE YOU WONT YOU TELL ME YOUR NAME

which obviously i know but hey. :D

I LOVE YOU HEMOGLOBIN 4 LIFEEEEEEEEEE

eleemosynarius July 6 2006, 13:41:33 UTC

hugs and kisses.
x's and o's.

ohgreedohyes July 7 2006, 23:02:07 UTC

xo, pretty lady. & thank you for everything. when this month are you coming back to visit again? i forgot to write it down. let me know so i can try to schedule a day off.

eleemosynarius July 7 2006, 23:03:36 UTC

i will be in br a week from today. the rest of the time (thurs thru monday of next week) i will be in houma (where you are more than welcome...if you dare!)

ohgreedohyes July 7 2006, 23:10:43 UTC

i'll try to get saturday morning off so i can drive up friday afternoon and get back to work saturday afternoon. i can hopefully make that happen if i just push my hours back and work late saturday evening.

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pbjnecrome July 6 2006, 15:48:13 UTC

Your genuine honesty is one of the reasons you're one of the very few people who can actually inspire me to be a better person. And I say this without so much as an ounce of exaggeration.

Thanks for sharing and we all love you, so stay strong Jables!

Hope to have breakfast again real soon!

ohgreedohyes July 7 2006, 23:06:40 UTC

what i love is that you have known me so long, through periods of me being naive and terrible and good and bad. i feel like we've all watched each other grow in some way, cliche as that might sound.

that said, i almost cried reading this. it's so funny that you say that because i feel the same way about you. you have such a good heart and you've been there for me through everything. i don't know what i would've done during the hurricane and when my purse got stolen if you hadn't calmed me down and took care of me. you've been one of the best friends i've ever had, and natalie as well.

i'm glad natalie understands the fact that we're getting married on the moon in 60 years. we will definitely do breakfast again before that. i love you!

prattkiddo July 7 2006, 01:55:02 UTC

You are a strong woman.

ohgreedohyes July 7 2006, 23:08:10 UTC

as are you, my love. how is the job thing going? do you plan on staying in new york for the indefinite future now that you've graduated or what? i can't imagine you ever moving back here. let me know if you're coming home to visit anytime soon. i miss you terribly.