There's always something about this time of year that makes people fall in love. I guess that with the coming of winter and the promises of mistle-toe and New Years kisses just brings more people together than ever. With this October chill brings the coming of bonding and bonfires, clove cigarettes and chai tea, leaves falling and hearts too. I ( Read more... )

I still hate you for what you've done. I still can't get over this. I will always be broken, I'm convinced.

I wish I could shake this mess off, but I'm fearing I won't ever trust someone again.

Failure.

I have to be your number one.

it's so hard to sleep without you.

and I wish I could unsend emails, because now I'm afraid I've made myself out to look like a fool and trash. great. that's really going to make you like me more, right? sike. I suck, end of story.

Current Goals:

• stay below 120 pounds.
• no drinking Monday - Thursday.
• stop spending paychecks right when I get them. better yet, don't even touch a paycheck, put that shit straight in the savings account.
• be more trusting.
• quit smoking all together.

"when you think negative thoughts, negative things will happen. if you do not take life one step at a time, you will become overwhelmed."

I can't believe that just happened, how perfect.
I know I make mistakes, but I'm about to make up for all of it. I don't care what I have to endure, I just know for sure that I want to be with you in this

if it doesn't brush my shoulder and it doesn't beat my heart
that's not what I want, no that's not where I will start
I never kissed somebody so that they could break my heart
that's not what I want...

if you don't know what you're missing, 'cause you don't know where to start,
follow your wishing heart.

I am so funny, sometimes. I can be completely miserable and content at the same god damn time. it's really upsetting. I wish I could just choose one feeling, one emotion, one fucking thing to concentrate on.

-scatterbrained & frustrated.

miss me when I'm gone, please?

to be or not to be.

eh?