This is going to anger you I'm sure, but today I realized that I was wrong for ever replying to you. I also realized that my hopes of you turning into a stable enough person to be able to change and have a civil conversation with me is thinking illogically. Especially if it turns out that you remaining in my life will ruin my hopes with my future ( Read more... )

I hope your blanket smells like me for a while.

That sounds really gross.

I feel like absolute shit. I forgot to call my dad on his birthday, and I feel like if I call now I'll just sound like a dumbass. I can't help my boyfriend out for some reason, I just can't ever cheer him up. I'm just feeling like a complete loser. I'm so stressed about getting my GED results, I'm afraid they've gotten lost in the mail and that I ( Read more... )

I feel like the walls I've built up are suddenly collapsing at my feet.

Would a little reassurance kill somebody?

I find myself wondering at times what it was like to date you. I can vividly imagine every one before you, but when I get to how things started a year and a half ago, how I felt at the time, it starts to get hazy. I don't know if I miss whatever I felt with you or I just block it out completely. I find myself completely second guessing myself some ( Read more... )

I wasn't the type of girl he wanted me to be. I had to change my hair, my clothes, how I spoke, how I acted, how I felt. Ultimately, I just wasn't strong enough to carry all of his dead weight. I wasn't going to change who I was to be better for someone who couldn't even realize what was in front of them. How is it fair to change for a person who ( Read more... )

so its been a pretty crazy ride here. I don't exactly know what to say other than sorry for the neglect and sorry for not keeping the three people who have me as friends in the know, haha. but seriously. I've been though a lot lately, too much to explain to this page and too much that I might get carpel tunnel syndrome. bottom line is, I am happy ( Read more... )

ITS MY BIRTHDAY!

"and i will rejoice in your fall from grace
with a cane through the sky like 'none shall pass'"

Well I don't write a lot anymore, I can't really imagine why ( Read more... )