My life is totally awesome.

There are a lot of good things going on right now. My relationship is the best it's ever been, I'm headed back to school for an endless world of positive possibilities, and I've got enough money to handle most any unforeseen crises that may appear. But, there are still some things that are freaking me out ( Read more... )

Sometimes I don't know if I'm going to make it through. And then I get blessed with an amazing iPod shuffle set.

My eyeballs hurt. What a mess ( Read more... )

Okay here it is: I messed up. I made some bad decisions. And moving on from them is starting to feel like impossible. I start to feel like "okay, I can deal with this" and then some other problem, which is a result of the original mistake or else mistakes stemming from the original mistake, pops up and I'm fucked again. FUCKED.

So, I just read my entire journal from the start. As soon as Matt dropped me off her at 3:35 I put wool blankets on the windows, crawled into bed, and resolved to shut myself away from the world. For the rest of my life, if possible. (Here I communicating with the world, though. Clearly I don't have enough balls.) Then I read my whole journal and ( Read more... )

I have never wanted anything more...

I'm fucked. I'm totally fucked. How in the HELL am I going to make 2300 dollars? Not to mention the 2000 I need to take to school for the year. IN SIX WEEKS? HOW THE FUCK AM I GOING TO DO THAT? I don't give very good blow jobs...

So, I guess I'll just say it: I'm glad I wrecked my car. Of course, I am devastated that I wrecked my Saab. My darling. My pearl. But I'm glad I wrecked my car. It was a horrible, surreal and frightening experience just to name a few of the emotions I experienced, and I'm still coping with it. I wake up in the middle of the night gasping for breath ( Read more... )

I wrecked my car Saturday night. Flipped it three times and landed upside down on the side of the road. I had to climb out. I could have died, but I walked away with nothing but a scratch and PTS. Oh my god...