today i gotta go to the hockey game with jill. not a bad thing though, me and her always used to go to them and see little matt play. so this is our first time going again. like the good old days ( Read more... )

every once in a while people have those days ( Read more... )

i have urges to go out to a field of flowers and just lay down and run around all by myself.

run until i don't know anyone.
where i'm forgotten but brand new.

i think that would be mind-blowingly amazing.

HOLY CRAP.

I cannot sing that high....
My God- I think my ear is bleeding.

IS IT WEIRD THAT:

>I really no longer care for school. That I could be failing all my classes and probably not give a bigger shit?
>I have a bad feeling that I will find not one boy in BHS [or even out of it] that likes me for me and is actually not creepy?
>I want to go crazy with new things?
>I never want to get out of my bed and it's hard to think ( Read more... )

everytime i think about it i get even more sad.
it sucks.

oh well.
fall play is finally over with. musical try-outs next thursday, super excited. guys & dolls. i just want to get a part in it so i can just be with all the people, they are so much fun.

i want to make a movie so scary, no one will see it.
a movie so sad that no one cries.
a movie so thought provoking i start a revolution.

but i don't think i can.

sometimes i just feel so left out.

today. sucked. so. hard.

kill me now?

So what if I say I need a change. That I need to have something different come in and switch things up ( Read more... )