Brooke&I are on good terms.

It's been 2 days and counting.

And I feel normal.

Pretty sweet.

ksjadhk.

i have to go.

you know

to the

gym.

all i can say is   SATURDAY   will be amazing.   nothing // anyone will mess it up.   AT ALL.   and i cannot wait. mmm.

yesterday was better than i thought.   i was siiiccccckkk. so i layed down. then i went jogging. that made it kinda better.   i think one of the key points of last night was talking to my madre. i explained to her my weight. and that im not eating dinner this week. so i kinda had control for once? i didnt want it, i just wanted to explain things to ( Read more... )

im so sick. all i ate yesterday was a bowl of cheese grits at waffle house. and the day before that was a banana. today. i had a 6inch sub. now i regret it. because i feel more nauseated than anything.   yesterday was good. in my pajamas i went and gave brittany grapes:). ashleigh came over around 12, i did her hair. ha, kind of. we bonded both ( Read more... )

great. mallory thinks i dont want to hangout with her. matt talks about every other girl. except me. ashleigh is coming over in a bit to do her hair. i highly doubt im going to be able to go tonight. seeing how my mom wants me home by 12. not after. so. it's a toss up. i want to hangout with mallory so badly. i wish she knew that. :-/

AWE.       IM SO HAPPY.   :) ha.

i cant stop thinking about him.   today i am COMPLETLY cleaning my room.   im only half way through.   i found so many notes. so many pictures.   i talked to ashleigh on the phone. telling me how she wants to move in with josh at the end of this year. josh//matt//levee&erik. :-/ that was supposed to be me.   but i need to move on. he has. to ( Read more... )

i've figured it out.

at least i think i have.

i surround myself with people that care about me.

=

happy.

i'm home for more than 2 hours.

=

sleep.

i sleep so i don't have to think.

thinking makes me realize how terribly messed up people can be.

the people i trust i count on one hand.

i dyed my hair and it looks much better.

hmmm.

i still miss ( Read more... )

'oooo i dont WANT to be in love. i dont WANT to get married'

NIGGA.

was i PICKING out wedding rings?!

HECK NO.

mm.

my hair is dark.

and WAY better than blonde.

ohoh & i have friends. like JADE.

xballerxcorex: loveya

see?

and mikey.

and MALLORY<33333333333.

and jaron.

and alicia.

ALICIA

and meryl.

and MALIA.

so go die.

oh josh too :).

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yesterday

i went to sleep at 5:30 PM.

and i just woke up and it's 5:14AM.

12 hours of sleep.

i cant get this out of my head.

you would think people would understand.

you would think that i would stop feeling like this.

but thats what you get for thinking.

:-/

i feel like a complete and total fool.

and it's i'm too far into this,

to just let go and ( Read more... )