Fragments of a Shattered Life 24
Title: Fragments of a Shattered Life
Part: 24/28-ish
Rating: 18+
Warnings: Explicit violence, non-con
Genre: Angst
Characters: Jack Harkness, Ianto Jones, Tosh, Owen
Summary: After POTW Jack's life takes a turn for the worse and he desperately needs help. A Doctor Who/Torchwood crossover. Note that this is a very dark fic.
Disclaimer: Not mine.
A/N:
Previous Chapter here ohinyan.livejournal.com/7314.html
Chapter 24: Stepping Off the Cliff
1 year later
After a year living with Ianto, Jack had adjusted well to normal life outside the Hub. He had become so comfortable living in normal society that he had started to accompany the team on field missions when they needed another person. The team had been careful never to use Jack as an expendable resource, and they never asked him to take risks that they would not take themselves. He was beginning to regain some of the confidence he had had before meeting the Doctor.
Ianto was also happy living and working with Jack. Only one thing troubled him; the sex. Jack had come on amazingly in his confidence when dealing with the outside world and people. However, the same could not be said of their physical relationship. Physically their relationship had not moved on far from where it was when Jack moved in. Jack was now happy to participate in most sexual activity as long as it did not involve penetration. However, whenever Ianto tried to move things in that direction, no matter which of them he wanted to be the recipient, Jack would freeze up.
Intellectually Ianto understood Jack's reaction but he was saddened that Jack didn't trust him enough to take this final step. And, if he was honest with himself, he was as frustrated as hell. He was trying to be patient but it was difficult. He was always very careful never to let Jack see this frustration.
* * * * * * * * * * *
Months went by and Jack was now a fully participating member of the team. He had shown his worth many times in dangerous situations in the field but had not died since the incident with the M'ritan robot. He was still happy living with Ianto, although he had recently noticed that something was bothering him.
Ianto would not admit that there was anything wrong and inwardly berated himself for being so shallow.
One morning coming up for two years after he had moved in with Ianto, Jack was approaching the main Hub when he heard Ianto talking to Tosh.
He heard Tosh say, “Is something the matter Ianto ? You don't look happy.”
Jack stopped walking and stayed where he was. He knew that Ianto had been on edge lately but couldn't get him to say what was wrong. Perhaps he would tell Tosh.
“Oh, there's nothing really wrong Tosh. It's just …” he trailed off then started again. “I shouldn't say this dammit, I shouldn't even be thinking it. It's just that Jack is still so reticent in bed and it's been nearly two years now and we still haven't …. you know. I'm starting to think that there isn't a future for us.”
Tosh was shocked. “Ianto don't say that. Jack loves you.”
Ianto sighed. “I know he does, but we're not getting anywhere and it's so frustrating. Maybe I need to cool things with him and move on.”
Tosh patted his arm. “He just needs time. You can't expect him to get over his past easily.”
“I know,” agreed Ianto. “But maybe the lack of progress shows that I'm not the person he needs for that.”
Jack had frozen in place during their conversation. He was in shock and deeply hurt. He had thought that Ianto understood him, and why he was reluctant to go further in their physical relationship. He had never got any hint that Ianto was becoming impatient. As Tosh and Ianto finished their conversation he backed quickly away and made his escape into the archives without being seen.
Once in his basement office Jack slumped down into his chair. He was having difficulty believing what he'd just heard. Ianto was going to end their relationship if things didn't change. He leapt up and started pacing around the room. Could he let his years on Nirvana and the research station take away the one good thing he had found in 140 years. He loved Ianto and Ianto loved him. If Ianto wanted complete physical intimacy couldn't he do that?
As he contemplated that, he found himself trembling. But the thought of losing Ianto was worse. He had soothed the gaping hole in his heart where his love for the Doctor had been torn out by the roots. There was nothing he wouldn't do for Ianto.
* * * *
The following week when Tosh, Ianto and Owen returned from a weevil hunt Jack caught Ianto alone in the office. Gathering his courage Jack smiled at him and putting his arms around his waist kissed him gently.
Shyly and stumbling a bit over his words Jack said “I've been thinking Ianto. Tonight is the second anniversary of my moving into your flat. I know I've been holding back physically but I think it's the right time for us to take the next step. It's 5pm now so why don't you finish up here and come home and I'll be waiting for you.
With that Jack stepped away from Ianto and went to gather his things ready to head home.
He left Ianto looking and feeling completely stunned.
Next chapter here: ohinyan.livejournal.com/7785.html
Part: 24/28-ish
Rating: 18+
Warnings: Explicit violence, non-con
Genre: Angst
Characters: Jack Harkness, Ianto Jones, Tosh, Owen
Summary: After POTW Jack's life takes a turn for the worse and he desperately needs help. A Doctor Who/Torchwood crossover. Note that this is a very dark fic.
Disclaimer: Not mine.
A/N:
Previous Chapter here ohinyan.livejournal.com/7314.html
Chapter 24: Stepping Off the Cliff
1 year later
After a year living with Ianto, Jack had adjusted well to normal life outside the Hub. He had become so comfortable living in normal society that he had started to accompany the team on field missions when they needed another person. The team had been careful never to use Jack as an expendable resource, and they never asked him to take risks that they would not take themselves. He was beginning to regain some of the confidence he had had before meeting the Doctor.
Ianto was also happy living and working with Jack. Only one thing troubled him; the sex. Jack had come on amazingly in his confidence when dealing with the outside world and people. However, the same could not be said of their physical relationship. Physically their relationship had not moved on far from where it was when Jack moved in. Jack was now happy to participate in most sexual activity as long as it did not involve penetration. However, whenever Ianto tried to move things in that direction, no matter which of them he wanted to be the recipient, Jack would freeze up.
Intellectually Ianto understood Jack's reaction but he was saddened that Jack didn't trust him enough to take this final step. And, if he was honest with himself, he was as frustrated as hell. He was trying to be patient but it was difficult. He was always very careful never to let Jack see this frustration.
* * * * * * * * * * *
Months went by and Jack was now a fully participating member of the team. He had shown his worth many times in dangerous situations in the field but had not died since the incident with the M'ritan robot. He was still happy living with Ianto, although he had recently noticed that something was bothering him.
Ianto would not admit that there was anything wrong and inwardly berated himself for being so shallow.
One morning coming up for two years after he had moved in with Ianto, Jack was approaching the main Hub when he heard Ianto talking to Tosh.
He heard Tosh say, “Is something the matter Ianto ? You don't look happy.”
Jack stopped walking and stayed where he was. He knew that Ianto had been on edge lately but couldn't get him to say what was wrong. Perhaps he would tell Tosh.
“Oh, there's nothing really wrong Tosh. It's just …” he trailed off then started again. “I shouldn't say this dammit, I shouldn't even be thinking it. It's just that Jack is still so reticent in bed and it's been nearly two years now and we still haven't …. you know. I'm starting to think that there isn't a future for us.”
Tosh was shocked. “Ianto don't say that. Jack loves you.”
Ianto sighed. “I know he does, but we're not getting anywhere and it's so frustrating. Maybe I need to cool things with him and move on.”
Tosh patted his arm. “He just needs time. You can't expect him to get over his past easily.”
“I know,” agreed Ianto. “But maybe the lack of progress shows that I'm not the person he needs for that.”
Jack had frozen in place during their conversation. He was in shock and deeply hurt. He had thought that Ianto understood him, and why he was reluctant to go further in their physical relationship. He had never got any hint that Ianto was becoming impatient. As Tosh and Ianto finished their conversation he backed quickly away and made his escape into the archives without being seen.
Once in his basement office Jack slumped down into his chair. He was having difficulty believing what he'd just heard. Ianto was going to end their relationship if things didn't change. He leapt up and started pacing around the room. Could he let his years on Nirvana and the research station take away the one good thing he had found in 140 years. He loved Ianto and Ianto loved him. If Ianto wanted complete physical intimacy couldn't he do that?
As he contemplated that, he found himself trembling. But the thought of losing Ianto was worse. He had soothed the gaping hole in his heart where his love for the Doctor had been torn out by the roots. There was nothing he wouldn't do for Ianto.
* * * *
The following week when Tosh, Ianto and Owen returned from a weevil hunt Jack caught Ianto alone in the office. Gathering his courage Jack smiled at him and putting his arms around his waist kissed him gently.
Shyly and stumbling a bit over his words Jack said “I've been thinking Ianto. Tonight is the second anniversary of my moving into your flat. I know I've been holding back physically but I think it's the right time for us to take the next step. It's 5pm now so why don't you finish up here and come home and I'll be waiting for you.
With that Jack stepped away from Ianto and went to gather his things ready to head home.
He left Ianto looking and feeling completely stunned.
Next chapter here: ohinyan.livejournal.com/7785.html