So Sam broke up with me. I'm still unclear as to why..but it's like we're still dating because he still calls me and tells me that he loves me. It's stupid and I don't know why he's doing it but Brianne said that I have to show him that I don't need him. I have to make it clear that he's the one who can't live without me not vice versa ( Read more... )

From the wrinkles on my forehead
To the mud upon my shoe
Everything's a memory
With strings that tie to you

In my dream I'm often running
To the place that's out of you
Of every kind of memory
With strings that tie to you

Though a change has taken place
And I no longer do adore her
Still every God forsaken place is always
Right around the corner

Now I know it' ( Read more... )

             this is

for everytime you told me i was beautiful
for everytime i believed you

for everytime you listened to my stories
for everytime i confided in you

for everytime you regretted giving it to me
for everytime i blamed you

for everytime you ignored my call
for everytime i called back

for everytime you said 'fuck you'
for everytime i let you

for ( Read more... )

My "best friend" and my "boyfriend" are both officially assholes.
I always do this to myself.
I cause myself to have no one.
Do I really deserve this?  That's a real question. I want to know. Can someone tell me?

Please.

The Nada Surf concert was AMAZING. I had so much fun, I really enjoyed it. I went with my mom's co-workers, Caroline: 20 yrs. & Erik: 25 yrs. so they're not like old and lame. It was so great I loved it. There's an album of pictures up on my myspace if you want to check it out because I haven't uploaded them to photobucket yet or else I would put ( Read more... )

This Song Explains EXACTLY How I Feel.

I'm not supposed to be scared of anything, but I don't know where I am
I wish that I could move but I'm exhausted and nobody understands
I'm trying hard to breathe now but there's no air in my lungs
There's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb

I try to hold this Under control
They can't help ( Read more... )

Bri and I talked on the phone until like 2am last night [[technically this morning]]. And something happened and she was upset about it and she just wanted to go to bed. I understood that she wanted to be alone. I've been feeling that way a lot lately. But she said she would call me during my lunch period today. I texted her when I got to lunch but ( Read more... )

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As soon as the bell rang, I darted out of class so I could try calling Sam. He answered. I was really pissed off at first but it was going no where. I just decided to say whatever. It's not worth making a big deal about it anymore. I just informed him that I was really having a rough week and he apologized. And an apology is really all he can give ( Read more... )

Last night I went to Howl-O-Scream with my mom and her co-workers' family/relatives. [Everyone except for my mom and Eric work for the business somehow.] It was a lot of fun. My throat is killing me. I was so scared the entire time. I thought I was going  to die of a panic attack. Me and Carolina were screaming at everything. Even walking through ( Read more... )