it was a friday when my cousin killed himself. friday, may 2nd, 2005. a date i will never forget. and every morning i wake up and every time i think i couldn't be more depressed. every negative thought every suicidal thought i try not to think for his sake. i try not to think since i don't want to be like him. i try not to be this way. i try not to ( Read more... )

i'm tired of waiting for life to take me by storm. i'm tired of waiting for something to happen. i need to go out and make it happen. i just can't. and i don't understand myself ( Read more... )

do i not feel enough? is there something blocking potentially amazing things in my mind? is love the only thing that can get through anymore ( Read more... )

it hurts a lot to know that today was supposed to be kyle and i's day. to know that today was the day i've been waiting for for almost four months. it hurts to know that we might never meet the way we planned. but iknow deep down with my mom's support it has to go somewhere ( Read more... )

i've blossomed; i've grown ( Read more... )

life scares me ( Read more... )

i was dumb
to think of
anyone besides
my boyfriend.
who means everything
to me.
i lovee him :]
i can't wait to
see him thursday,
hopefully danielle
can go! :]

no one can love me like kyle can.
i don't want to give that up.
:/ no sir.

& i'm probably seeing him on thursday!
holla

in my heart i know what i want ( Read more... )

i don't know what the fuck is going on with me ( Read more... )