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hold it right there!
I can be prety darn cynical sometimes. Or should i say revengful... Even if i suspect anyone of doing something i will go right back and do something out of spite even though they won't know I did anything. mwahaha ( Read more... ) -
ok
I definatly need to vent about this one.... it's either I'm going completely insane or my intuition is correct.. ahem ( Read more... ) -
not totally eating related....
I'm not doing well as of today. well it started yesterday too... my mood lately has been horrendous. Feelings of hurting myself have come back ( Read more... ) -
dont bother reading
Alright I figure I share this in my journal. Sometimes I don't feel like writing this sort of stuff in my paper journal. because the mom might stumble upon it. i don't know. I don't think i'm liking this whole working out thing... for the past month and a half I have been working out at least 3 times a week. and this past month and a half i have ( Read more... ) -
my head is caught in a whirlwind
let's see. I just woke up and realised how fucking huge and flabby i am. even though I'm working out day after day i still feel gross. I haven't stepped on the scale in a week for fear of what the numbers may be. and i have also been drinking quite a bit lately well 4 times in the past week. but i never drink beer. only shots of vodka perhaps and ( Read more... ) -
What Do You Have To Say? - Music: My First Favorite Band
when i was about 4 and 5 i would love the traveling wilburys and dance to that song by the los lobos "la bamba". mostly my moms classic rock -
oh what a night
literally. Well. let me tell you. anyways i guess i should start off by saying i have been hospitalized basically the whole month of june for suicide attempts and what not. thats besides the point,. So i met this kid in hte lockdown unit kinda geeky and he has schizophrenia.... ut i figure he was a goofball and decent to hang out with. anwyays ( Read more... ) -
I'm sickie
ya so i came down with the flu. which is fine with me. that means lazing around doing nothing and not having an appetite. the thing is i cant smoke ciggarettes cause i dont want this damn thing to turn into bronchitis or pneumonia. Anyway. on an another note. i graduate school april 25th ( Read more... ) -
oh dear.
as of now I live my self absorbed life inside of a tear... It runs his your warm cheek of uncertainty. don't wipe me away ( Read more... ) -
i am dull(don't read if you don't like being bored)
weigh in: 91water weight i hope... i was down to 87 last week)its better than what i saw last night 93 ( Read more... )