I'm pretty convinced that it's not my fault that you're a total asshole ( Read more... )

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Getting older is officially freaking me out. I've had four separate conversations with my parents about marriage and children. Two of them taking place before 7 am this morning.

I told them the only commitment I'm making is to wear my cowboy boots with my dress.

They weren't pleased.

Maybe getting older is getting to them too.

Not having a license and owing my parents 5,000 fucking dollars puts a cramp on my so-called independence ( Read more... )

I've recently decided that I will keep a lot more things to myself. I'm not obligated to tell anyone anything, really. I've realized that I can get riled up about things that won't matter after I take a ride on my bike and decide to forget about it. I've gotten through a lot of things on my own in the last 6 months, OWI, jail, breakdowns, breakups ( Read more... )

Though court ordered AA is clearly a violation of my civil rights, I realized in a 12:00 meeting today that, sometimes, SOMETIMES, it's a rather interesting group to be a part of. Where else in my life would I be gathered together with such a cross section of people? Not just gathered, but conversing with. My favorite people in AA are the old as ( Read more... )

How the fuck do I accumulate so much stuff? Seriously ( Read more... )

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Why do I feel that if I could only get to the north field that everything would be all right? That all the damages and holes would mend together with that dirt under my feet? I need the oaks to the east, the cedar at my back, and the clover beneath me, as ghosts of memories run down the dark cathedral of trees. It’s a center to me that I don’t ( Read more... )

I currently have vials of mold and pollen serum sitting in my designated area of the refrigerator. Every three days I'm to ride my bike up to Advantage Health where a nurse will inject this serum into me. One injection in each arm. I'm used to the shots, even though I still can't watch. I had to start the whole process over because I'm stupid. On ( Read more... )