This is me ranting to myself:

So, Aly has been my best friend for 8 years now, right? I befriended her before she became popular, I've been there for her just as much as shes been there for me (which is always). But what happened to that? This entire year I've barely said a thing to her. We usually hang out one day every three or four months, she ( Read more... )

"This happens all the time and 
I cant help but think I'll die alone..."

I got dumped. By ernie at that. It was kind of shocking, but I cant honestly say that I care. I was using him for sex, and since that wasnt working out too well I was going to break it off anyway. But come on, he broke up with me over myspace. He wasnt even man enough to say it ( Read more... )

Whats wrong with me?

I mean, I may not be the most interesting, fun, hilarious, cute, good-looking girl ever, but I never thought I'd end up like this. Practically alone. It's just, no one even likes me. My parents think I'm a loser, my sister thinks likewise, and my brother thinks I'm some fucking suicidal angry emo kid. My own boyfriend makes ( Read more... )

It's been so long since I remember having a really emotionally shitty day. Shitty really isnt even enough to describe the feeling. I dont think I really can.
Hopeless
Worthless
Alone
Angry
Depressed
Meloncholy
pensive (in the worst way)
Destructive
Not good enough
A disspointment (to everyone)

I dont know whats happening to me. All the sudden, heres the panic ( Read more... )

I just got a huge reality check over this entire break. I always thought that there were some people who just plain didnt have emotions, and that they are just people to talk to, aquainteces that I didnt have to care about. I never paid attention to who they were or what was going on in their minds. I used them to vent to, and to get through math ( Read more... )

True or False: You cant help who you fall in love with.

I think thats bullshit, to be frank. First of all, love is a bunch of crap. It's hyped up non exsistant shit and if you believe in it then you're an idiot. And ok, falling iin love=liking somone, lets just call it that for now. You sure as hell can help it. Maybe you shouldnt let your stupid ( Read more... )

Whats wrong with me?

Latley I've been thinking about wierd things, kind of morbid. But then again morbid is pretty much the basis of my being. But I've honestly been thinking; if I die, who would really be affected?
And btw, I'm not fucking suicidal. I swear, I've just been thinking about true friendship and all that.
But honestly, who would really ( Read more... )

    The stereo produced the velvet melody that seemed to caress my very soul. It just put my mind at ease. Simple, but beyond complexity. My friend was sitting next to me, driving the big hunter green SUV down a dark highway. Just driving, driving and listening. I needed to get away tonight, it wasnt really a matter of luxury, it was a necessary ( Read more... )

Scream me a lullaby, one that will haunt me in my sleep.
Sing all the wicked words,
Tell me of the things you see,
Of the monsters and terrors,
That murder right before your eyes,
Remind me of the nightmares,
That I live with everyday,
Tell me that I'm about to die, over and over, I love the sound
Scream me a lullaby, untill i close my eyes

Idk. Just ( Read more... )

Ever had this feeling that you're second best to someone? That no matter what you do, you'll never be as good as someone else. Thats all I've been feeling latley, that I'm not good enough and I'm either a rebound or a distraction. Its the worst feeling in the world, honestly. Its so confusing I just feel like shit, and these thoughts are always on ( Read more... )