when i was younger, but not much younger, i always had a happy disposition no matter what was going on in my life. the world could be crumbling down around me but i was always looking at the bright side and feeling optimistic. i've gotten older, which means i've seen more, and a lot of it hasn't been good, but i'm going to try and bring back that ( Read more... )

so i decided i really really do want to do something involved criminal justice. though i really enjoy all aspects of the arts from film to writing and everything in between, i don't want a career where my creativity determines my paycheck. so now i'm paving myself a road to solving crime, working in labs to figure out the evidence, and figuring out ( Read more... )

i just wrote a long entry, and then deleted it all. i don't think i should say all that. no. i can't say that. i didn't mean that anyways.

not at all. not one word...

...except i meant it all. but i still can't say it.

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yesterday, sitting with jessica and jen on my front porch, debating whether i needed a jacket or not, contemplating how nice the weather just actually was, gave me reassurance that it really could be the cold that has me feeling less social and motivated to leave the house lately. i felt the sun trying as hard as it could to beat through those gray ( Read more... )

i'm going to start writing here ( Read more... )

livejournal won't let me create my own style without paying. i'm pissed. i think i'm going to switch to a blog site that will let me do that. plus, this journal is screwed up with the date too, it's always a year ahead. i'll keep this one too though so i can keep in touch with some people and read up on what they're up to still.

WE'RE GOING TO THE SUPERBOWL BABY. I'M ECSTATIC. FUCK YEAH. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK YEAH. TRY AND BRING ME DOWN MOTHER FUCKERS. GIANTS ARE GOING TO THE SHIP.

The Giants won today against the Cowboys, and that makes me fucking happy. Lauren Kelly and Alli came to pick up Peanut yesterday, so that leave three cats left. One more needs a good home. It was supposed to go to my sisters friend but all of a sudden she can't have it, so, if any of you want a cute kitten, let me know fast ( Read more... )

there is a fight in my brain: motivation vs. procrastination.

and it goes deeper than you think. i can't sleep.

Please say a prayer for my one year old nephew thomas. He's in the hospital. I'm really really worried.