sorry, kids. that entry was supposed to be in my new journal. follow it if you like. if not, well, it was a pointless entry.

in brandon's journal, he had a series of anonymous letters. i told him that i was going to steal the idea and make a bunch of letters when i moved to columbia. well. i moved to columbia yesterday. and was writing all the letters the day before. when i realized. i don't want to say anything to most of you. there are... 3 people in st louis who made ( Read more... )

so i'm in columbia. right now. with mum. we're actually having a really great time. she quit smoking, so i thought it was going to be hell and she was going to be all bitchy. but she hasn't been. we saw... let's see. tiger village, gatehouse, holiday house, forest village, brookside duplexes, 2 apartments from real estate management, inc., cedar ( Read more... )

two days until my last day at the lawfirm. i've become incredibly lazy the past few days because of it ( Read more... )

i tried shrooms last night. an amazing experience, i must say. i kept getting scared because of what happened to maki, and i ended up taking as much as she did that time. everything was so funny. and so beautiful. i was just giddy the entire night. it was nice, considering the past few days. Joe and I went on and on about how everything just made ( Read more... )

so. i finally went and saw my specialist yesterday. it was interesting. i really like him. i like him a whole lot. he's very psychiatrist-like, except he tells you straight out what he's perceiving is wrong with you, or what needs help, or, i'm not sure how to put that. he also comments on what you're saying, but in a not-so-corny way. i don't know ( Read more... )

it's nice to finally breathe again. then again, i'm not really sure the last time i did that. i've been so used to moving around so much, constantly changing things because your life is supposed to feel comfortable. trouble is, i never really knew what comfortable felt like. so. i've never even really recognized that i'm in a good situation and i ( Read more... )

oh, how lovely this all is. i'm really tired of trusting people. really. fucking. tired ( Read more... )

the unspoken officiality (yes, i'm aware that is not a word.) is now a spoken officiality. i'm actually not so worried about this one. in fact, being around him makes me forget about anything that i do worry about. perhaps that's why i wasn't so scared. ick. i'm sounding cheesy ( Read more... )

this one goes out to ryan. and maki. and a few others who will catch on. here is a chunk of corey's xanga. corey is nikki's boy back home. the one she's so hopelessly in love with, but does so many things behind his back. things she knows he would not be ok with ( Read more... )