i'll suffocate you faster just so you can't see,
so you can't see me sleep

New Years came and past.New Years Eve was great...an awesome night,with awesome people.But now it's '06,time to start somewhat new,and I couldn't be anymore depressed

Erik leaves in less then 2 weeks.After Florida,the day after we come back,he heads up to college.I'm ridiculously scared,and upset,and millions of other things.I want us to work...I ( Read more... )

I'm tired of Christmas.I'm sick and fucking tired of it.I hate it.I can't stand the dumb holiday.And all the shitty music is getting on my nerves

Bah fucking humbug,bitches.Bite me.

YOU KNOW YOU'RE A STONER WHEN.....

--Every story you tell begins with, "We were really high and..."
--You buy your Visine at a wholesale club
--You're a Bob Marley fan and you don't even like reggae
--Someone asks you for a dime and you tell them you're out of herb
--The High Times centerfold turns you on
--Every vacation you wind up in Amsterdam or ( Read more... )

[Marital Status] Taken,and pretty damned happy
[Shoe size] 9?Something like that,it depends
[Parents still together] Nope,one's dead,the other might as well be
[Siblings] None
[Pets] 2 dawgs

FAVORITES
[Color] Ultra violet and neon green
[Number] 13 and 4
[Animal] Wolf,penguins,tigger
[Drinks] Tea,water,Jaeger bombs
[Soda] Cherry coke
[Book] Lots
[Flower] Rose, ( Read more... )

Having to go to a funeral with an empty casket is harder then having to look at the person.Why?Because,bodies shouldn't be lost.

Watching a casket filled with pictures get lowered into the ground is even harder.Those are memories being covered in dirt.It hurts,and I can't help it.I can't get myself over the fact that my "blood brother",my partner ( Read more... )

I'm pretty sure if I have to go to one more funeral in the next few months,someone will be planning mine.

I can't stand this.The whole dying thing.Especially when it's in part of this war.
In no way to I support terrorism,but if we see what they're doing as terrorism,do they cosnider us terrorists?Aren't we doing the same thing?They're doing it out ( Read more... )

Happy Thanksgiving,guys.Hope it's all well,healthy,safe...all that schtuff.

Went with Erik to Rockland to meet his family.They're great,and I really liked them.He says they really liked me,too. :) Now,we're going down to Jersey to see Gram.

Weeeee.Have fun guys

I have to say...I wasn't exactly looking forward to my birthday.Pessimistic or not,my birthday just really hasn't been my favorite day ever.Though yesterday did an incredible job at proving that wrong.

Never once has anyone,friend or family,woken me up at midnight to be the first to wish me a happy birthday.That is definatley the highlight of ( Read more... )

It's funny

I think I'm happy

In fact,I'm feeling pretty darn good.Better then I have in a while.
But I still cry almost everyday.

What's wrong with me?