it seems that the more people are around me the more i feel like i have no privacy, yet i feel so lonley and sad. Like there is no cure, no reason at all for me to feel this way. yet, i do. everything is distant to me, i look at my self in the mirror and see how i feel inside, so im prove my outer look to feel better inside, but that doesnt work, ( Read more... )

its early, very early, and once again i didnt sleep. im doing nothing, not just now in general, the only thing i am actually working on to better is my music, the Oi! band and the metal one. my whole week revolves around it. its nice because i express my feelings everyday without having to use words, but as im busy int hat world the real world ( Read more... )

so i went to the toy store to look for a puzzle and i looked at the lego seccion and got really sad. when i was a kid i used to be able to choose so many legos , but now its to a minimum, i almost had no options. and i realized why, VIDEO GAMES. yes video games are destoying toys, everyone want video games, thats why toys arent that big now. that ( Read more... )

ive been kinda sad latley. i have great friends and the most loyal of friends. but i dont have that friend i can talk to anything about. i meant i could, but so many people pissed me off ive gotten rid of so many friends, i need that true friend i can go to about anything, i mean it a cant be Andrea (andi) because who do i bitch about her to. i ( Read more... )

i need to learn how to spell in english better, i suck at it. well i had my first internet discussion. it was fun. im tired but today im going to andis house to work out and go in the pool and then in the jacuzzi. oh ma damn i love the jacuzzi ( Read more... )

i have to addmit its kinda nice writing on live journal. its relaxing

ups and downs ( Read more... )

1)what the fuck is wrong with me? i cant sleep anytime before 7 am..... i need help ( Read more... )

I need to make all my fantasies a reality somehow, i feel rushed to do everything ive wanted to do NOW.

poo