it isnt what youve done on campus that makes people talk about you
you care too much about what other people think of you

it would always be what i did for others, what cause i drove, what i did to help that helped me make sense of why people would like me, want to talk about me....

maybe they just liked me as a human being? and not as rugby player? ( Read more... )

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good thing i skipped choir to work on my paper because i got so much done

just for the electricity to cut off and destroy the whole hour's worth of effort.

Yea..this is getting serious.

just fuck everything ( Read more... )

living fully.

can be completely different from living a full life.

anyone can serve as a symbolic being and push papers, shake hands, or inform

what makes the heart soar? what can i produce and feed myself with all at once?  find out 

woke up after a terrible nightmare involving the team and powerstruggles galore.

its very sad to see the team in such a shape. ill take passive indifference over power struggle tension any day.

cant think over that this is my last game. and i almost didnt make it to this day. i almost performed a crazed swan dive, rugby suicide if you will.

i dont ( Read more... )

omg im graduating. i just got in my study abroad credits. I now have 113 credits with 18 more coming in after this semester.

Im done. WOW. im sort of elated.

but i still dont know how to peacefully say goodbye to guilford. im thinking its going to be a little bit like that scene in white fang. that tragic scene.

the whole point of my paper is that I have had so many opportunities and been blessed but could never get over myself enough to enjoy them or take full advantage. its sorta like leading the horse to water but not being able to make it drink. which is on me...but I will also analyze and reflect on the ways we are taught and how they interact with my ( Read more... )

apparently I am in the Guilford system for disabilities. Intrigued. and it gets me a $10 gift card. SWEET.

i need strength to finish all this work. OK GO.

On friday, February 23rd, 5:36pm I approached contact with another rugby player off of a ruck. I landed incorrectly on my right leg and the ankle rolled and a significant popping sensation occured down there. Immediately I fell to the ground. --Feeling INTENSE pain.-- The opposing player, thinking that she was about to meet a brick wall of force, ( Read more... )