"What exactly do I envision for myself that I could accomplish if I changed my attitude ( Read more... )

The audio and webinars I've been listening to over the past year or more have been sporadic in pattern. I will be really into it for a week or two, then not listen to any for a month or more. The above titled is a vimeo course by my favorite upline, Brianne, and I listened to it during my morning commute on Monday and Tuesday. It spoke to me while ( Read more... )

I realized as I clicked on "New entry" that I was journaling as an excuse to delay housework ( Read more... )

(I wrote this maybe a week ago? It just popped up as a saved draft so I thought I would post it ( Read more... )

The depression is winning today. I put it here where no one hardly will see. Then i can drift further and not alert anyone. Makes sense? Of course not, i should be reaching for help.

Once again: why?
Why?
Why?

When I'm physically not able to write, that is when I have my best ideas. Last night I was thinking of a great post as I lay in bed, eyes closed, drifting off into my favorite state of being- asleep. Can I remember what that post was now? Not a single hint. There is also shower time- I can not write or type while taking a shower, obviously, but ( Read more... )

The dreaded dermatologist appointment was nothing to worry about. In fact, we didn't even get seen. Insurance issue. And I have let off plenty of steam regarding the POS that insurance is right now, so I will just dismiss that from this entry. Puhhh ( Read more... )

Today is AJ's follow up with the dermatologist. A month ago they did a biopsy, which ended up with me in a crippling panic attack. I've slept a lot this week and now i have a headache. Julius has been home sick two days and now can't seem to clear up all the congestion.
I'm worried about the appointment.

One good thing that happened today: I was able to go to my second DBT meeting, and I am really enjoying the experience ( Read more... )

10 years, back to the beginning. :-)
I fucking love The Castle. This needs to happen more than once every five years! #drunkpost