I'm pretty fucking frightened as far as my future goes ( Read more... )

I think i might be done with this piece of shit motherfucker.

ciao,
anna

Tricky - poems

normally this would be an indirect way to tell you how i feel in a more poetic way, but I found this song again recently and it means everything to me. Tricky has a song for everything in my life.
Click the song and listen to the whole thing for me. It's important for me to share things that snag a nerve. It's a way of letting people ( Read more... )

I want to let you know that I wanted this to be very easy for you. I wanted to leave you a way out if you wanted it ( Read more... )

Life is not horrible. In fact I am one of the luckiest people i've ever heard of.
I need models in the portland area who want to help me graduate by letting me tattoo something tiny somewhere on their skin.
if you come through for me I will owe you.

those raphaelite curls make my legs lose power and i have to sit and contemplate the fragility of mortal existence for a good half an hour until i can move again.

way to make me feel like a goddess.

You called me last night to tell me that you think of me sometimes. You called me to ask what I was doing about five times, listening to me shivering and breathing heavy. I could smell the drugs and alcohol over the phone and when you asked for me I turned you away. We said goodnight and then you called me five minutes later at four in the morning ( Read more... )

Dear Joe,
     Avalanche - Leonard Cohen.
  ( always )

it was really too bad you never got to see how beautiful i was. I didn't care about any of your actions. I didn't care about the way you left the house or how you freaked out every once in a while. I already knew what was inside your head and i fell hard and harder and I couldn't get back up when you were around. You turned me into someone I didn' ( Read more... )

nothing good came of that.

I need to not need anymore.