things have been strange ( Read more... )

things are crazy/beautiful, spinning in multicolored lights around my dizzy head. i can feel an ache down to the core of my bones. last night i went to see the infernal noise brigade at some sort of anarchist ho-down. i drank whiskey & cheap beer & someone slipped me something, but trevor was there to take care of me so it was okay. i fell asleep ( Read more... )

so i am officially in seattle (well, redmond) now & its to say the least, splendid. people have this really strange thing called courtesy. i'm adjusting ( Read more... )

my mother's father passed away on saturday.
on my birthday, i got to go to a funeral.
(& no, i don't want to fucking talk about it)

i leave in ten.. well, techinically nine days.

i'm kind of afraid & kind of excited & kind of sad & kind of happy.
well, what'd you expect?

& heaven's no, i'll be legal in three days. oh what is this poor world coming to?

twenty-four days until seattle ( Read more... )

"you'll never seen the courage i know ( Read more... )

ryan & i got into (another) argument, about him well, completely ditching me for his (well, my ex-) girlfriend.

i hate people.

i don't know (still). i'm starting to think i never fully will.

"contain yourself
i will compress
who i am too
replace yourself
with what you have
your substitute."
(silverchair)

"where's today ( Read more... )

thirty-eight days until i leave for seattle.
now i wish i had somehow figured a way to get frequent flyer miles or whatever the hell they are. god damnit.

my whole family is insane. i uh, kind of over-dosed on klonopin on sunday because my sister wants me dead, but i figure chic is a hell of a lot more important than her considering she's ( Read more... )