Epic Luke/Noah Picspam (Part 1 of 2)
Ok, here we go with part 1 of my epic Luke and Noah picspam. Part 2 is pretty much finished but I'm not going to post it for a few days because it really is exhausting putting all this together. You guys have no idea how much time I put into this, omg. I wanted to put both parts into one entry but it would have been way too long.
Anyway, I've been planning this picspam for awhile now but got enough motivation to finish it since I knew Laura (starryeyedmagic)'s birthday was coming up and she loves Luke/Noah as much I do, if not more. So, this is for you, bb. Happy birthday again! I hope you enjoy. ♥
This is definitely not dial-up friendly. I repeat, not dial-up friendly. It could potentially kill your internet or something. lol
Luke: What kind of idiot turns off his cell phone on the first day of work?
Noah:This kind of idiot. Hi, Noah Mayer.
Maddie: Luke, this is incredible. I mean, it's just an outline and I'm practically in tears.
Noah: Maddie's right, it's really awesome.
Luke: Thanks.
Maddie: The main character, the girl, she's so afraid to fall in love again.
Luke: Well, it's not that she doesn't want to. She just doesn't want to keep falling for the wrong people. She's willing to have exactly what she wants or nothing at all.
Noah: You're really into this idea, aren't you?
Luke: Is it that obvious?
Maddie: See, that's why you're such a good writer. You really get into the main characters' heads and show their feeling. I mean, all Noah and I could
come up with was old stuff that people have seen a million times. But you -- I feel like I'm eavesdropping on something that's happening right now.
Noah: So, who was your inspiration, Luke?
Luke: Beats me.
Noah: Listen Luke, I know it was awkward before, you walking in on me and Maddie.
Luke: Look, Noah, you don't owe me any explanations.
Noah: It seems like maybe I did. The way you reacted. I know you and Maddie went to prom together. I just thought you were friends.
Luke: We are.
Noah: But if there's more going on.
Luke: No, there's not.
Noah: Look, the last thing I want you to think is that I'm going to try to come in and move in on someone's girlfriend. So, if you were interested in Maddie at all...
Luke: Trust me, Noah, I am not interested in Maddie.
Noah: If you say so.
Luke: I'm not interested in Maddie!
Noah: Are you sure?
Luke: Yes. I am sure. I'm totally sure. I'm gay.
Noah: I wanted to ask you a question and I don't want Maddie to be thinking about this. But, at the end of that scene, do you think she should be crying?
Luke: No.
Noah: You sure? I mean, all that stuff about being alone, I mean, its tough stuff.
Luke: Yeah. But she knows not to cry. Crying just makes things worse
Noah: Okay Luke, this is silly. You've been looking for reasons to avoid working with me all day. Did I do something?
Luke: No. Just get me when you have a cut you want me to see.
Noah: Why are you so mad at me?
Luke: I'm not mad at you.
Noah: Then why do you keep treating me like I got the plague? I mean, do you just not like me?
Luke: No, I like you Noah.
Noah: Then why do you keep pushing me away?
Luke: Because......I like you Noah. Yeah, like that.
Noah: So, you've been avoiding me because you're attracted to me?
Luke: Yeah, aren't you glad you asked? Look, I should have just kept my mouth shut. You're probably totally freaked out right now.
Noah: No...
Luke: It's just I am so tired of hiding and lying, I'm just through with it.
Noah: I'm glad you said something. I just hope I didn't do anything to make you think, because, man, I'm not gay.
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Luke: You have no idea how this feels. You know, I'm the only gay guy a lot of people in this town even know.
Noah: That's probably not true, man. Speaking statistically.
Luke: Okay, well, I'm the only gay guy they know they know. And I feel like I'm a poster child for the cause or something. And coming out, you know, that's a certain responsibility. Like, I feel like if I mess up, there's going to be somebody who decides that they just hate all gay people for life. And that can get kind of hard.
Noah: Someday I should make a movie about my dad.
Luke: Yeah, you can make a tell-all. It would make millions.
Noah: Yeah, then I'd go out and live the Hollywood lifestyle.
Luke: But you must retain your artistic integrity. Do you have an acceptance speech ready yet?
Noah: No, I'll have you write it for me, after you write our first award-winning screenplay.
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Maddie: So, I'm kind of bummed. It looks like I missed out on a good time. Or not. What's going on? Obviously you went swimming.
Luke: Yeah, yeah, we did. It was great.
Maddie: Isn't the pond awesome?
Noah: Yeah, only now I'm starving. Let's go grab a pizza.
Maddie: Come with us. We'll grab pizza. We'll put this stuff away. It will be good.
Noah: No.
Maddie: You don't want Luke to come have pizza with us? What happened? Did you guys get in a fight or something?
Noah: No, no, of course not.
Maddie: Okay, well then, what happened?
Noah: Nothing. That was rude of me, Luke. It's just, you know, now that Maddie is here, I just, you know, want to be alone with her.
Luke: Maybe we should talk.
Noah: There's really nothing to talk about.
Luke: But I feel like there is something to...
Noah: Whatever you think happened, didn't.
Luke: Really?
Noah: Yeah. I'm not, I'm not gay.
Luke: I never said that you were.
Noah: Thanks. Does this match?
Luke: Will your dad even notice? Most guys don’t.
Noah: My dad will definitely notice. He'll even notice that my shoes aren't shined.
Luke: Maybe I should have gotten you a clip on. Hey, don't strangle yourself.
Noah: Right now, I wouldn't mind if I did.
Luke: I can do it. Let me know if it's too tight.
Noah: Okay.
Luke: What's wrong?
Noah: Nothing.
Noah: Right. Um, Maddie posted tomorrow's schedule if you want to take a look at it.
Luke: So that's it? We're going to talk about work?
Noah: Huh? You mean that? Yeah, I bet you didn't see that coming.
Luke: Well, I don't think you did, either.
Noah: Look, you're not mad or anything, right? I mean, we're still friends?
Luke: How would I be mad?
Noah: Because of the way I mess with your head.
Luke: Really?
Noah: Hey, you're always so serious about everything. You're always so serious about being, you know...
Luke: Gay?
Noah: Yeah, so I thought this would be a good way to shake things up a bit. You know, lighten you up?
Luke: Noah, you can say whatever you want to say, but we both know what happened.
Noah: Look, I was out of line. My dad's in town and I act sort of weird when he's around but you know, it was a joke. I hope you do get that.
Luke: Noah...
Noah: Look, it was a joke, okay? Don't go making more of it than it was!
Noah: The truth? The truth is that I kissed you.
Luke: I know. I was there.
Noah: And you're right, it wasn't a joke. I kissed you because I wanted to.
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Noah: You know, not everyone can be blessed with parents as good as yours. But my dad is trying. He's trying to be a better dad, and I'm trying to be a better son.
Luke: But gay men can be good sons.
Noah: Not to him! Why is this so hard for you to understand?
Luke: Look, I don't know what it's like growing up with your father. And I'm sorry if I'm making this sound very easy because I know it's not.
Noah: I just don't want to hurt anyone.
Luke: You won’t. Not intentionally, at least.
Noah: I can control it. I will control it.
Noah: Luke, we've talked about this before. I can't be gay, okay? It's not going to happen
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Noah: Maddie's happy. I make her happy.
Luke: Yeah, but Noah, what would make you happy?
Noah: I don't know.
Luke: Okay. So Maddie gets to be happy, even though she's living a lie. And your dad gets to be happy because he has a supposedly straight son.
Noah: Me and my dad, we're none of your business
Luke: Yes, yes, you are. You made it my business when you kissed me. And when you told me that's what you wanted to do and you meant it.
Noah: I don't want to talk about this.
Luke: Okay, you know what? Maybe you're right. I mean, how hard can it be to fake a life with somebody, sharing a bed and meals. Sex. You and Maddie on vacation with dear old dad.
Noah: That's the life I want.
Luke: For now. But you know what? One day you're going to wake up and you're going to realize that the one thing you can't lie to yourself about anymore. Is that you've made this life or this relationship or whatever you want to call it. With somebody that you've never been in love with.
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Luke: Look, Noah, I get that you're scared and that you're not ready to admit you're gay.
Noah: Look, you don't know how I'm feeling. Stop pretending like you know everything.
Luke: Okay, you're right. I don’t.
Noah: So just get over yourself, Luke.
Noah: Luke, I like you, you know that. But as a friend.
Luke: A friend?
Noah: Yeah. And I know I gave you mixed signals and confused you and hurt you, but I never meant to do that.
Luke: You know what, Noah? You're right. You did hurt me. But hey, at least you're being honest about your feelings now. You don't want me with another guy, not because you're gay or jealous, it's because you're my straight friend.
Noah: I'm not lying to her, okay? I want to move in with her. I want things to go back to the way they were before you screwed up.
Luke: You know what? Just hold on, just a minute. We both know that I have been nothing but honest since the beginning. And it was you who came on to me. I didn't try to seduce you. I didn't try to convert you. And now that Maddie knows what you are, well, that as they say, is inevitable.
Noah: I've got to go find Maddie. I've got to go tell her that I am not like you.
Luke: Yeah, you're not like me. That's for damned sure. At least I'm happy with who I am.
Noah: Luke, it's not. Damn it!
Noah: You know, I just figured something else about you too. It's not about how you feel, it's definitely not about how I feel, for you, it's like some cause or something. And everybody's got to do exactly what you did. You took away my right to live my life my way.
Luke: Well, if you feel that way, that's your call. But I'm just trying to get you to...
Noah: To do what? Do whatever you want me to do?
Luke: No! To do the only thing that's going to work. Look, Noah, if the closet door had stayed shut and your dad was completely clueless, that would be one thing. But right now it's like this war that's never going to end.
Noah: That's not true!
Luke: Yes it is. And I just want you to realize...
Noah: Look, it could kill him!
Luke: But what about what it's doing to you?
Noah: Doesn't matter.
Luke: It does to me.
Noah: Yeah, right, like you...
Luke: Yeah. Like for whatever reason, I still really care about you.
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Noah: Now I just have to figure out how to tell my dad I'm gay. Without him going off the deep end.
Luke: So, your dad thinks you and Maddie are back together again.
Noah: I didn't mean to lie to him. And I swear when he comes back, I'll straighten everything out. But when Maddie told me to just let him go, I suddenly felt this weight lift off me. It's like I can breathe again. And I can be, I don't know...
Luke: Yourself?
Noah: Yeah. I wish I could feel like this all the time.
Luke: Well, you can. I'm not trying to pressure you or anything, but once your dad does come back, and if you do decide to come out to him? This feeling, this freedom, just not hiding. That will be normal.
Luke: Well, I bet you're sorry you ever met me.
Noah: No. I'm not. I'm just sorry you had to hear all those things he said.
Luke: It's not your fault.
Noah: I should have stood up to him. He's right, I'm a coward.
Luke: Look, it's your dad. That's hard.
Noah: You know something, he's worse than a coward. He's a bigot.
Luke: You told me, you told me that you weren't ready to come out. And I just should have just listened to you. I shouldn't have kissed you.
Noah: We kissed each other, Luke. And I don't regret that. That was the best thing that happened to me in a long time.
Noah: My dad's not the man who I thought he was. And seeing you reminds me of that, and it really hurts. But seeing you also reminds me how much I care about you.
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Noah: I'm not asking what you think is possible. I'm asking what you think you want. What you do want. Do you want me to be your boyfriend?
Luke: Yes.
Noah: And you know as well as I do that I wanted to be with you. But look what I did to you. Look what I did to Maddie. And you know, some part of me thinks that on some level, my dad's right.
Luke: Okay, no! No! Noah, please don't! Look, you may be messed up, and we may not have some nice, happy fairy-tale ending, but don't you for a second, tell me that man was right about anything! Especially about you.
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Luke: You're right. Your father lied to you your whole life. About who you were. About who he was. About who your mom was. And then in one day, you find out the truth about all of it. And you go and you do something stupid? I mean, hey, how could that happen, right?
Noah: It was wrong.
Luke: Yeah, it was. And you need to figure out why you did that. Like what was it inside of you that made you do that. And all that junk, but your father is a bigot. And your entire life, he's been telling you all the wrong stuff. And you may not know who you are, but he doesn't know one thing about you. And what he thinks about you, that doesn't matter. So, you want to know what you can do for me? You can prove to me that the man who put me in this chair didn't win. That you and me are stronger than he ever was. That's what you can do for me.
Noah: Do you know how tired I am of you telling me how I feel?
Luke: You know what? You want to move in with Maddie. You think your father's changed. You think you're straight. You need someone to tell you how you feel.
Noah: Yeah, and I found him. Okay, you made me see a lot of things that I didn't see. That I didn't want to see. I was man enough to see that you were right. Now it's your turn.
Luke: Just the mention of your father's name freaks you out.
Noah: He killed my mother. Anything would've been better than growing up with him.
Luke: Well then, you need to go tell him that. If you don't do this, you'll never be free of him.
Noah: He put you in that chair.
Luke: Because he's a coward. You are way stronger than he will ever be. Go see him. Look him in the eye and tell him that he can't hurt you anymore.
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Noah: When I'm with Luke, it's the only time I'm not confused. He doesn't lie to me.
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Col. Mayer: Noah, I sacrificed everything to save you from this.
Luke: Oh, you know what, that is enough! Noah and I are together. And you have to accept that.
Col. Mayer: I am not going to sit here and listen to a pervert lecture me about morality.
Noah: Stop calling Luke names.
Col. Mayer: Noah, he has you under some kind of spell. But it's not too late. You don't have to end up like this. I won't let him destroy you.
Luke: That is the opposite of what I'm doing! I love your son. And we're together. And we are not afraid to let the world see that. You talk about what's right? This is right. Me and Noah together. And you locked up in a prison where you belong.
Noah: You're my boyfriend.
Luke: Yeah, I am. In private. When it's just the two of us and nobody can hear you say it.
Noah: Hey, I don't have to say something out loud for it to be true.
Luke: Yeah, but, let me ask you something. Your new friends at school, do they know?
Noah: That I'm gay? I don't know.
Luke: Well, have you told them?
Noah: It's not exactly the first thing I say to someone when I meet them.
Luke: Yeah, but Noah, you just don't say it at all.
Noah: So what? That doesn't mean that they don't know. I mean, they asked us both to go to the party. So it's pretty obvious to me they assume that we're together. Look, I'm here with you. I'm holding your hand. I know that people are looking at us, I know what they see. And I know what they're thinking. I'm not hiding you.
Luke: So, what are you doing for Christmas?
Noah: I don't know. I guess I've got to check someone with school to see which dorms are going to be open through break.
Luke: No, don't do that. Spend Christmas with me.
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Luke: Hey. Are you okay?
Noah: Yeah. Yeah. I was just thinking about your grandma. I've never met anyone like her. Somebody so honest and kind, and both at once. I'm so happy that I'm going to be spending the holidays here with you. I think it's going to be my best Christmas ever.
Noah: Growing up with my dad we didn't talk very much. But we definitely didn't talk about...
Luke: Look, look, look. It's okay. It's okay. I know I talk enough for both of us.
Noah: But there's something I need you to know.
Luke: "Luke, I wish I had your way with words, but I don’t. Thank you for never giving up on me, even when I pushed you away. Being with you has made me happier than I have ever been. Merry Christmas. Love, Noah." Do you mean that?
Noah: Every word.
Luke: So you can write it, but you can't say it?
Noah: It's not something we really grew up saying in my house. I never really felt comfortable but you have to know how I feel about you.
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Luke: When I first came out, it was fine. But I was lonely. I looked at Will and Gwen and Casey and Maddie, and I thought that is something that I'm never going to have. And not just the attraction, but, I don't know, just, just the feeling of walking into a room and having somebody who is happy to see you. You know? Not having to say everything or spell everything out. But still, having somebody who knows what you mean. And I think, I think these feelings have a word. And you don't have to say this back. You don't have to say this back. But I love you, Noah. And I'm so in love with you.
Noah: Luke, same here.
Luke: I can't possibly hurt myself dancing to this.
Noah: You think I'm a coward, don't you?
Luke: No, I don’t. And I shouldn't rag on you. You're here with me and that's enough. Really.
Noah: Hmmm.
Luke: Hmmm, what?
Noah: I was just thinking. This would be a really nice time to dance.
Luke: Yeah.
Noah: Just one question. Who leads?
Noah: Luke, I'm not as good with words as you are. If you haven't figured it out by now.
Luke: Well, actually, you know what? I think I did get that, yeah.
Noah: Shut up.
Luke: So, what's wrong with the dorm?
Noah: Nothing. I just, I thought we'd get a place together.
Luke: I said we could live together. Why is it so important to get an apartment?
Noah: Because I don't have anybody else. Okay, I don't have a home to go to over semester break. Or a family out there, rooting for me, sending me care packages. I've got you, Luke. And that's amazing, but it's also really scary. Because without you, I really am alone.
Luke: No. No, you have tons of friends.
Noah: Not like you do. You walk into a room and you're surrounded. You always attract these good people. Me, not so much.
Luke: You're just shy. But everybody loves you.
Noah: Luke, I don't like the dorms, okay? There are always people around, and I still felt lonely. But when I was with you at the farm, it felt so
good. I felt like I was part of a family. And it was a little addictive. And I guess, I feel like I want to live with you because if we're together, I won't go back to feeling how I used to. Because I'll have a family. You. And I'll be a part of something.
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Luke: I had to talk to my grandmother. We have a proposition for you.
Noah: You both do?
Luke: Yeah. How would you feel about moving to the farm permanently?
Noah: Are you serious? I can't believe this is happening. I get to live with you and I'll get a built-in family, too?
Luke: Yeah, so, is that a yes?
Noah: Yeah, yes.
Luke: Well, let's make it official.
Noah: We can do this some other time. I want this to feel right.
Luke: This isn't about my feelings for you. I love you. And I really, really want to be together.
Noah: I think about it all the time. I mean, sneaking kisses on the porch and holding hands walking around the pond is great, but you can't blame a guy for wanting more.
Luke: I want it too. So bad. But there's just so much going on with my father right now.
Noah: I know. You're right, um, your family has to come first. Um, it's cool.
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Luke: Well, okay, the thing is, I do. I do really, really, really want to be with you. Alone. And I mean, like, really alone.
Noah: We have time. When things settle down with your family, we'll know when it feels right.
Luke: You're amazing. It's like that you can read my mind. What am I thinking?
Noah: Moonlight walk around the pond?
Luke: I'm there.
Noah: Luke's one of the bravest people you'll ever meet.
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Noah: Luke was really the first guy I ever had those feelings for.
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Noah: You don't have to be related to somebody to feel like family.
Noah: I know this is tough for you. It's tough for me, too. But think about it. We can save a life here, because that's what's at stake. Hey, I know that this is a huge responsibility, but don't you think it's worth it?
Luke: Noah, just answer me one thing. Do you love me?
Noah: I love you more than you'll ever know and nothing will change that, not this marriage, not anything else.
Luke: That's all I needed to know.
Luke: It was nice to be with you again. Even if it wasn't for very long.
Noah: Yeah. I just wish it could have been longer.
Luke: Yeah. I guess this means that we're going to have to cool things again, huh?
Noah: For a while. But I promise, it won't be for too much longer.
Luke: You know I really hate this.
Noah: Yeah! So do I. You know, he could still be watching.
Luke: You know what, Noah? I can’t. I'm sorry. I can't do this right now. I just can’t. I'll see you later.
Noah: Luke?
Luke: My dad said moving here was gonna be an emotional time bomb. I'm beginning to think he's right.
Noah: Your dad didn't want you to move in?
Luke: No. But I still think we can make it work. Don't you?
Noah: Yeah, I do if you do.
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Noah: Uh, Luke, what are you doing? You can't leave. You just got here. Give this a little more time.
Luke: What difference will that make? I want to be alone with you, Noah. Not you and your wife. Just you.
Noah: She's my wife in name only. You know that.
Luke: I know! But she's still out there. And for some reason, until today, I didn't feel her presence so much. I don't know what I'm doing. I need to be alone with you.
Noah: I'm afraid that just can't happen right now.
Luke: I know that! But until it can, it's too painful to be around you. I'm leaving.
Noah: Luke, wait.
Luke: All we do is wait. For your father to accept us. For me to get better from the shooting. For Ameera to get her papers. I'm sick of waiting! I want to be alone with you right now, but I know. That can't happen. So until it can, I can't put myself in a situation that makes me feel worse than I already do.
Noah: All right, well, can I at least...?
Luke: What? Kiss me good-bye? Come on, Noah. We can't even hug. The I.C.E. might be watching.
Luke: Look, I don't know what I was thinking, moving in here with you and Ameera. And the stuff I said when I left.
Noah: You didn't say anything wrong.
Luke: Yes, I did. I made it seem like waiting for you would be the worst thing in the world. But if it meant waiting for you or not having you in my life, I would wait. I would wait forever.
Noah: You mean that?
Luke: Yes. Noah, what we have, this is real, and this is amazing, and it can survive all of this, and I am so sorry if something I said made you think otherwise.
Noah: It was my fault, too, okay? I should have made it more clear that there isn't anyone else I want in my life every day as much as you.
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Noah: My father is a sick man, and I'm not gonna let him hurt you. I'll be back as soon as I can.
Luke: I'll stay here with Ameera. Are you sure I can't get you to change your mind?
Noah: We can't be seen together. You know that. Especially going to visit my father.
Luke: Well, maybe this time it'll be different. I mean, he sent you that letter. Maybe he wants to make amends.
Noah: Luke, he killed my mother. He tried to kill you. He cannot make amends for that.
Luke: I know. Just promise me something, okay? If he tries to say things to you to try to get at you, don't let him, okay?
Noah: I won’t. I'll just think of you. You'll be my secret weapon.
Luke: I love you.
Noah: Same here.
Noah: This is a bad situation, and I'm trying to live with it as best I can, but most of the time, I'm not doing a very good job for any of us. The truth is, I don't know how to do any better.
Luke: Neither do I. But we are on the same side. We have to remember that.
Noah: I know you're just looking out for me.
Luke: Yeah. I'm not gonna stop. And if something bad happens to you because you're trying to do something good for Ameera, I couldn't live with that.
Noah: Nothing's gonna happen to me. I promise.
Luke: Well, Noah, do you realize what this means? If Ameera’s gone and she's not coming back, then everything that was keeping us apart, the hiding and the denials and the lying, that's all over.
Noah: We're free?
Luke: It's finally just us, just you and me. What we want, what we feel.
Noah: Is that why my heart's beating so fast?
Luke: Just breathe.
Noah: I'll try.
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Noah: I love you. I am so in love with you.
Noah: What do you think you're?
Luke: Hey.
Noah: Luke.
Luke: I missed you, too.
Noah: Why didn't you call, tell me you were coming?
Luke: Why don't you try checking your voice mail once in a while? No, but seriously, I think you're right. I think something fishy is going on.
Noah: Yeah, and now you're here, you're in danger, too.
Luke: Snyders don't run away from fights, especially not when their boyfriends need them.
Luke: What are you thinking?
Noah: I'm thinking that what you and I have is probably the best thing that's ever happened to me. And that I love you.
Luke: I'm glad to hear it.
Noah: And I'm sorry. Because with everything that's happened, Luke, I think I need a break.
Luke: Okay, well, that sounds good. You know, it's been a very, very stressful week. We can just get cleaned up, we can get some food. We can go out to the pond, and just...
Noah: No. No, Luke, I need to take a break from us.
Noah: Luke, I'm not good about talking things out about how I feel inside. You know that.
Luke: Oh, really? Are we back at that again? Because you really didn't seem to have that problem before we left for New York. We sat right in there, in that room, and you told me how much you loved me and that you were in love with me. Has that changed?
Noah: No.
Luke: Well, could you at least look at me when you say that?
Noah: No. It hasn't changed. I'm still in love with you.
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Luke: Who am I to you, Noah?
Noah: What?
Luke: I mean, am I just some guy? Or am I it? Am I the love of your life?
Noah: How am I supposed to know that?
Luke: I do. Because that's what you are to me.
Noah: What are these?
Luke: You're the film buff. You tell me.
Noah: "Road to Perdition" and "Godfather." Fathers that do bad things. Yeah, I got it. What's your point?
Luke: You didn't see this one.
Noah: "Luke and Dad"?
Luke: Damian Grimaldi, my birth father.
Noah: You don't talk about him very much.
Luke: Well, when I was a kid, he, uh, kidnapped me to get some thugs off his back. And when I came out, not only did he try to de-gay me, but, he lied to me and told me he was dying to get me to go back to Europe with him.
Noah: He wanted your trust fund, right?
Luke: Yeah. And I've watched those movies thousands of times. And in them, I can see how much he loved me, and I can see all of the fun times we had together. But as hard as I try, I can't see the part of him that wanted to sell me out. I can't see the greed, and I can't see the cruelty.
Noah: It's not the same as with me and my father.
Luke: Why not? Look, I know that you have very, very complicated feelings about your father, and I don't blame you for trying to find some good in him. But, Noah, whatever the Colonel was, you're not that. You don't have to polish your father's image to keep it from reflecting badly on you. Look, you are a good, decent, loving man.
Noah: But I'm still his son.
Luke: So what?! Evil's not genetic. Your father was an angry, isolated person. You don't have to be that. You deserve to be loved.
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Noah: Luke, being here doesn't feel like home anymore, okay? It does for you. You belong. You have roots here. But for me, it just reminds me that I don't belong anywhere.
Luke: Yes, you do. You belong with me.
Noah: You were right all along, Luke. We do belong together. I'm sorry things got so messed up. All I want is this.
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Luke: I can't believe that this is happening!
Noah: That I just met Cyndi Lauper?
Luke: Well, yeah, no. Yes. That's awesome, too, but I guess I was talking about us. You know, like, can you believe it? How long have we waited for this moment, and it's finally here. And this might be a first, but no one's staying at the farm tonight. I want you to come home with me.
Noah: I'm sorry, Luke. We can’t.
Luke: Why not? I just said that no one's staying at the farm tonight.
Noah: Well, that's not the problem.
Luke: Then what is? Don't you want to be with me?
Noah: More than anything, I do. It's just, I can’t. It's late. I have to go.
Luke: Go where?
Noah: I enlisted. In the army.
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Luke: I can't believe this. We can finally be together, after everything we've been through, after all the crap we were dealt, and you're leaving me.
Noah: I'm sorry, Luke. I have to. Just try and understand.
Luke: The army's not the answer, not for you. You're gay.
Noah: I'm aware of that.
Luke: So, it's the whole "Don't ask, don't tell" thing. You don't get to talk about being gay. You don't get to tell people you're gay. You don't get to act upon it.
Noah: Well, you're the only one I want to be with, so I'm not worried about acting on it. And I won't be talking about it, because that will just make me miss you more. So the whole "Don't ask, don't tell" thing, it works for me.
Luke: So you'd be fine with not putting my picture in your locker or not being able to read my letters to your friends?
Noah: Luke, it's just for a few years.
Luke: Years? God, I wish your father wasn't dead, because if he was alive and he brought this up, you would laugh in his face.
Noah: Yeah, well, you know what? He is dead, and it woke me up. I can't just go to school and make movies! I've got to do something with my life!
Luke: Yeah, but this? It's like your dad is running your life from the grave or something.
Noah: And what are you doing coming here, talking to me like I'm too stupid to make my own decisions?
Luke: No! Noah, I am terrified! I am so scared. I am so scared, it's like I can't even breathe.
Noah: Well, I'll be okay. I will. I'll be okay.
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Noah: Thank you for telling the truth.
Luke: Yeah. But the truth is that I love you. There's no truth greater than that.
Noah: She's right, you know? You are doing a good thing.
Luke: Well, thank you. But the important thing is that I'm not doing this for Damian. I'm doing this for you.
Noah: What? What do you mean?
Luke: Remember when you wanted to join the army? You said it was because you wanted to do something good with your life, you wanted to serve. So I was thinking that working for this foundation would be a way that you can get what you want. And it's a way that we can work on something together.
Noah: Luke, you know, not every relationship is destined to fail.
Luke: Maybe not in fantasy land. But in the real world, no. Happy endings don't exist. That's why romantic comedies don't have sequels. Nobody gets happily ever after.
Noah: So, is that what you think is gonna happen to us? You don't think we're meant to last?
Luke: Do you?
Noah: Yeah. Yes, I do.
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Luke: There is nothing keeping us from having sex. So why aren't we? Yeah, that's what I thought.
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Noah: Look, you know, I get where you're coming from. I do, okay, why you're questioning where we stand. I get it. But don't you know that I want to be with you, too?
Luke: Well, you never really seemed to have this problem sleeping with Maddie.
Noah: Maddie is different.
Luke: Why? Is it because she's a girl?
Noah: No. It's because she's not my happy ending. Hey, you are. What you and I have is real. It's the realest thing in my life. That's why I haven't been able to, you know, I've been kind of messed up since my dad died. I enlisted. And I don't want our first time to be when I'm like this. And I don't want it to be because we got the house to ourselves for a half an hour. Then it's about sex.
Luke: Yeah. Well, I want it to be special, too.
Noah: It will be. It is. I love you.
Luke: I love you, too.
Noah: We're gonna be together. You don't have to worry about me going anywhere, cause you and I are gonna be together for a very, very long time.
Noah: I love the way you care so much about your family. It makes me realize if you care half as much about me, I'm a pretty lucky guy.
Luke: Well, I do and you know it.
Noah: Actually, I was wondering, would you like to go on a date with me, Luke Snyder?
Luke: A date? When?
Noah: Tonight.
Luke: But you have to work early tomorrow morning.
Noah: Well, that's why it'll be an early date. One hour from now, which will give us enough time to go say hello to Aaron before we change.
Luke: Change? Like "Get dressed up all fancy" change?
Noah: It's a date.
Luke: But why?
Noah: That right there. That smile. I missed it.
Luke: Noah, he came out and said that for the sake of the foundation, we shouldn't go around "Advertising" our relationship.
Noah: Well, maybe he's right.
Luke: Of course he's right to you. Way to jump right back in the closet, Noah.
Noah: Hey, that's not cool.
Luke: Look, I know. And I'm sorry. I am. It's just, how can you be okay with this?
Noah: Because it won't change anything between us. I don't want you to quit the foundation because you're afraid it might. When Brian was telling us his ideas, you lit up in a way I really haven't seen you do before. And you can't give that up.
Luke: Yeah, but I feel that it took us so long to get to where we are.
Noah: Hey. We are still right here. Nobody can take it away.
Luke: Remember the first time I did this for you?
Noah: Of course. It was historic for me. That was the first time I ever wore a Windsor. You know, back then, I couldn't imagine a life with you, and now I can't imagine a life without you.
Luke: Well, lucky for you, Bubby, it's just beginning.
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Luke: Ahh, well, you must really love me a lot to put up with all of this.
Noah: Um, more than a lot. More than anything.
Noah: Look on the bright side. While Brian is lulling Lucinda to sleep with tales of mushrooms past, you and I will be alone together under the stars.
Luke: I like the way you think.
Noah: I like the way you do a lot of things.
To be continued....
Part 2
+ Screencaps from here and here
+ A special thanks to this site for providing the transcripts for all the quotes I used. I seriously would still be working on posting this if it wasn't for them. :)
+ Please don't use the caps for graphics or anything. It took me a great deal of time to color them and make them all pretty. Thank you. :)
+ Feel free to steal the gifs. Credit is not necessary.
Anyway, I've been planning this picspam for awhile now but got enough motivation to finish it since I knew Laura (starryeyedmagic)'s birthday was coming up and she loves Luke/Noah as much I do, if not more. So, this is for you, bb. Happy birthday again! I hope you enjoy. ♥
This is definitely not dial-up friendly. I repeat, not dial-up friendly. It could potentially kill your internet or something. lol
Luke: What kind of idiot turns off his cell phone on the first day of work?
Noah:This kind of idiot. Hi, Noah Mayer.
Maddie: Luke, this is incredible. I mean, it's just an outline and I'm practically in tears.
Noah: Maddie's right, it's really awesome.
Luke: Thanks.
Maddie: The main character, the girl, she's so afraid to fall in love again.
Luke: Well, it's not that she doesn't want to. She just doesn't want to keep falling for the wrong people. She's willing to have exactly what she wants or nothing at all.
Noah: You're really into this idea, aren't you?
Luke: Is it that obvious?
Maddie: See, that's why you're such a good writer. You really get into the main characters' heads and show their feeling. I mean, all Noah and I could
come up with was old stuff that people have seen a million times. But you -- I feel like I'm eavesdropping on something that's happening right now.
Noah: So, who was your inspiration, Luke?
Luke: Beats me.
Noah: Listen Luke, I know it was awkward before, you walking in on me and Maddie.
Luke: Look, Noah, you don't owe me any explanations.
Noah: It seems like maybe I did. The way you reacted. I know you and Maddie went to prom together. I just thought you were friends.
Luke: We are.
Noah: But if there's more going on.
Luke: No, there's not.
Noah: Look, the last thing I want you to think is that I'm going to try to come in and move in on someone's girlfriend. So, if you were interested in Maddie at all...
Luke: Trust me, Noah, I am not interested in Maddie.
Noah: If you say so.
Luke: I'm not interested in Maddie!
Noah: Are you sure?
Luke: Yes. I am sure. I'm totally sure. I'm gay.
Noah: I wanted to ask you a question and I don't want Maddie to be thinking about this. But, at the end of that scene, do you think she should be crying?
Luke: No.
Noah: You sure? I mean, all that stuff about being alone, I mean, its tough stuff.
Luke: Yeah. But she knows not to cry. Crying just makes things worse
Noah: Okay Luke, this is silly. You've been looking for reasons to avoid working with me all day. Did I do something?
Luke: No. Just get me when you have a cut you want me to see.
Noah: Why are you so mad at me?
Luke: I'm not mad at you.
Noah: Then why do you keep treating me like I got the plague? I mean, do you just not like me?
Luke: No, I like you Noah.
Noah: Then why do you keep pushing me away?
Luke: Because......I like you Noah. Yeah, like that.
Noah: So, you've been avoiding me because you're attracted to me?
Luke: Yeah, aren't you glad you asked? Look, I should have just kept my mouth shut. You're probably totally freaked out right now.
Noah: No...
Luke: It's just I am so tired of hiding and lying, I'm just through with it.
Noah: I'm glad you said something. I just hope I didn't do anything to make you think, because, man, I'm not gay.
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Luke: You have no idea how this feels. You know, I'm the only gay guy a lot of people in this town even know.
Noah: That's probably not true, man. Speaking statistically.
Luke: Okay, well, I'm the only gay guy they know they know. And I feel like I'm a poster child for the cause or something. And coming out, you know, that's a certain responsibility. Like, I feel like if I mess up, there's going to be somebody who decides that they just hate all gay people for life. And that can get kind of hard.
Noah: Someday I should make a movie about my dad.
Luke: Yeah, you can make a tell-all. It would make millions.
Noah: Yeah, then I'd go out and live the Hollywood lifestyle.
Luke: But you must retain your artistic integrity. Do you have an acceptance speech ready yet?
Noah: No, I'll have you write it for me, after you write our first award-winning screenplay.
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Maddie: So, I'm kind of bummed. It looks like I missed out on a good time. Or not. What's going on? Obviously you went swimming.
Luke: Yeah, yeah, we did. It was great.
Maddie: Isn't the pond awesome?
Noah: Yeah, only now I'm starving. Let's go grab a pizza.
Maddie: Come with us. We'll grab pizza. We'll put this stuff away. It will be good.
Noah: No.
Maddie: You don't want Luke to come have pizza with us? What happened? Did you guys get in a fight or something?
Noah: No, no, of course not.
Maddie: Okay, well then, what happened?
Noah: Nothing. That was rude of me, Luke. It's just, you know, now that Maddie is here, I just, you know, want to be alone with her.
Luke: Maybe we should talk.
Noah: There's really nothing to talk about.
Luke: But I feel like there is something to...
Noah: Whatever you think happened, didn't.
Luke: Really?
Noah: Yeah. I'm not, I'm not gay.
Luke: I never said that you were.
Noah: Thanks. Does this match?
Luke: Will your dad even notice? Most guys don’t.
Noah: My dad will definitely notice. He'll even notice that my shoes aren't shined.
Luke: Maybe I should have gotten you a clip on. Hey, don't strangle yourself.
Noah: Right now, I wouldn't mind if I did.
Luke: I can do it. Let me know if it's too tight.
Noah: Okay.
Luke: What's wrong?
Noah: Nothing.
Noah: Right. Um, Maddie posted tomorrow's schedule if you want to take a look at it.
Luke: So that's it? We're going to talk about work?
Noah: Huh? You mean that? Yeah, I bet you didn't see that coming.
Luke: Well, I don't think you did, either.
Noah: Look, you're not mad or anything, right? I mean, we're still friends?
Luke: How would I be mad?
Noah: Because of the way I mess with your head.
Luke: Really?
Noah: Hey, you're always so serious about everything. You're always so serious about being, you know...
Luke: Gay?
Noah: Yeah, so I thought this would be a good way to shake things up a bit. You know, lighten you up?
Luke: Noah, you can say whatever you want to say, but we both know what happened.
Noah: Look, I was out of line. My dad's in town and I act sort of weird when he's around but you know, it was a joke. I hope you do get that.
Luke: Noah...
Noah: Look, it was a joke, okay? Don't go making more of it than it was!
Noah: The truth? The truth is that I kissed you.
Luke: I know. I was there.
Noah: And you're right, it wasn't a joke. I kissed you because I wanted to.
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Noah: You know, not everyone can be blessed with parents as good as yours. But my dad is trying. He's trying to be a better dad, and I'm trying to be a better son.
Luke: But gay men can be good sons.
Noah: Not to him! Why is this so hard for you to understand?
Luke: Look, I don't know what it's like growing up with your father. And I'm sorry if I'm making this sound very easy because I know it's not.
Noah: I just don't want to hurt anyone.
Luke: You won’t. Not intentionally, at least.
Noah: I can control it. I will control it.
Noah: Luke, we've talked about this before. I can't be gay, okay? It's not going to happen
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Noah: Maddie's happy. I make her happy.
Luke: Yeah, but Noah, what would make you happy?
Noah: I don't know.
Luke: Okay. So Maddie gets to be happy, even though she's living a lie. And your dad gets to be happy because he has a supposedly straight son.
Noah: Me and my dad, we're none of your business
Luke: Yes, yes, you are. You made it my business when you kissed me. And when you told me that's what you wanted to do and you meant it.
Noah: I don't want to talk about this.
Luke: Okay, you know what? Maybe you're right. I mean, how hard can it be to fake a life with somebody, sharing a bed and meals. Sex. You and Maddie on vacation with dear old dad.
Noah: That's the life I want.
Luke: For now. But you know what? One day you're going to wake up and you're going to realize that the one thing you can't lie to yourself about anymore. Is that you've made this life or this relationship or whatever you want to call it. With somebody that you've never been in love with.
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Luke: Look, Noah, I get that you're scared and that you're not ready to admit you're gay.
Noah: Look, you don't know how I'm feeling. Stop pretending like you know everything.
Luke: Okay, you're right. I don’t.
Noah: So just get over yourself, Luke.
Noah: Luke, I like you, you know that. But as a friend.
Luke: A friend?
Noah: Yeah. And I know I gave you mixed signals and confused you and hurt you, but I never meant to do that.
Luke: You know what, Noah? You're right. You did hurt me. But hey, at least you're being honest about your feelings now. You don't want me with another guy, not because you're gay or jealous, it's because you're my straight friend.
Noah: I'm not lying to her, okay? I want to move in with her. I want things to go back to the way they were before you screwed up.
Luke: You know what? Just hold on, just a minute. We both know that I have been nothing but honest since the beginning. And it was you who came on to me. I didn't try to seduce you. I didn't try to convert you. And now that Maddie knows what you are, well, that as they say, is inevitable.
Noah: I've got to go find Maddie. I've got to go tell her that I am not like you.
Luke: Yeah, you're not like me. That's for damned sure. At least I'm happy with who I am.
Noah: Luke, it's not. Damn it!
Noah: You know, I just figured something else about you too. It's not about how you feel, it's definitely not about how I feel, for you, it's like some cause or something. And everybody's got to do exactly what you did. You took away my right to live my life my way.
Luke: Well, if you feel that way, that's your call. But I'm just trying to get you to...
Noah: To do what? Do whatever you want me to do?
Luke: No! To do the only thing that's going to work. Look, Noah, if the closet door had stayed shut and your dad was completely clueless, that would be one thing. But right now it's like this war that's never going to end.
Noah: That's not true!
Luke: Yes it is. And I just want you to realize...
Noah: Look, it could kill him!
Luke: But what about what it's doing to you?
Noah: Doesn't matter.
Luke: It does to me.
Noah: Yeah, right, like you...
Luke: Yeah. Like for whatever reason, I still really care about you.
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Noah: Now I just have to figure out how to tell my dad I'm gay. Without him going off the deep end.
Luke: So, your dad thinks you and Maddie are back together again.
Noah: I didn't mean to lie to him. And I swear when he comes back, I'll straighten everything out. But when Maddie told me to just let him go, I suddenly felt this weight lift off me. It's like I can breathe again. And I can be, I don't know...
Luke: Yourself?
Noah: Yeah. I wish I could feel like this all the time.
Luke: Well, you can. I'm not trying to pressure you or anything, but once your dad does come back, and if you do decide to come out to him? This feeling, this freedom, just not hiding. That will be normal.
Luke: Well, I bet you're sorry you ever met me.
Noah: No. I'm not. I'm just sorry you had to hear all those things he said.
Luke: It's not your fault.
Noah: I should have stood up to him. He's right, I'm a coward.
Luke: Look, it's your dad. That's hard.
Noah: You know something, he's worse than a coward. He's a bigot.
Luke: You told me, you told me that you weren't ready to come out. And I just should have just listened to you. I shouldn't have kissed you.
Noah: We kissed each other, Luke. And I don't regret that. That was the best thing that happened to me in a long time.
Noah: My dad's not the man who I thought he was. And seeing you reminds me of that, and it really hurts. But seeing you also reminds me how much I care about you.
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Noah: I'm not asking what you think is possible. I'm asking what you think you want. What you do want. Do you want me to be your boyfriend?
Luke: Yes.
Noah: And you know as well as I do that I wanted to be with you. But look what I did to you. Look what I did to Maddie. And you know, some part of me thinks that on some level, my dad's right.
Luke: Okay, no! No! Noah, please don't! Look, you may be messed up, and we may not have some nice, happy fairy-tale ending, but don't you for a second, tell me that man was right about anything! Especially about you.
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Luke: You're right. Your father lied to you your whole life. About who you were. About who he was. About who your mom was. And then in one day, you find out the truth about all of it. And you go and you do something stupid? I mean, hey, how could that happen, right?
Noah: It was wrong.
Luke: Yeah, it was. And you need to figure out why you did that. Like what was it inside of you that made you do that. And all that junk, but your father is a bigot. And your entire life, he's been telling you all the wrong stuff. And you may not know who you are, but he doesn't know one thing about you. And what he thinks about you, that doesn't matter. So, you want to know what you can do for me? You can prove to me that the man who put me in this chair didn't win. That you and me are stronger than he ever was. That's what you can do for me.
Noah: Do you know how tired I am of you telling me how I feel?
Luke: You know what? You want to move in with Maddie. You think your father's changed. You think you're straight. You need someone to tell you how you feel.
Noah: Yeah, and I found him. Okay, you made me see a lot of things that I didn't see. That I didn't want to see. I was man enough to see that you were right. Now it's your turn.
Luke: Just the mention of your father's name freaks you out.
Noah: He killed my mother. Anything would've been better than growing up with him.
Luke: Well then, you need to go tell him that. If you don't do this, you'll never be free of him.
Noah: He put you in that chair.
Luke: Because he's a coward. You are way stronger than he will ever be. Go see him. Look him in the eye and tell him that he can't hurt you anymore.
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Noah: When I'm with Luke, it's the only time I'm not confused. He doesn't lie to me.
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Col. Mayer: Noah, I sacrificed everything to save you from this.
Luke: Oh, you know what, that is enough! Noah and I are together. And you have to accept that.
Col. Mayer: I am not going to sit here and listen to a pervert lecture me about morality.
Noah: Stop calling Luke names.
Col. Mayer: Noah, he has you under some kind of spell. But it's not too late. You don't have to end up like this. I won't let him destroy you.
Luke: That is the opposite of what I'm doing! I love your son. And we're together. And we are not afraid to let the world see that. You talk about what's right? This is right. Me and Noah together. And you locked up in a prison where you belong.
Noah: You're my boyfriend.
Luke: Yeah, I am. In private. When it's just the two of us and nobody can hear you say it.
Noah: Hey, I don't have to say something out loud for it to be true.
Luke: Yeah, but, let me ask you something. Your new friends at school, do they know?
Noah: That I'm gay? I don't know.
Luke: Well, have you told them?
Noah: It's not exactly the first thing I say to someone when I meet them.
Luke: Yeah, but Noah, you just don't say it at all.
Noah: So what? That doesn't mean that they don't know. I mean, they asked us both to go to the party. So it's pretty obvious to me they assume that we're together. Look, I'm here with you. I'm holding your hand. I know that people are looking at us, I know what they see. And I know what they're thinking. I'm not hiding you.
Luke: So, what are you doing for Christmas?
Noah: I don't know. I guess I've got to check someone with school to see which dorms are going to be open through break.
Luke: No, don't do that. Spend Christmas with me.
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Luke: Hey. Are you okay?
Noah: Yeah. Yeah. I was just thinking about your grandma. I've never met anyone like her. Somebody so honest and kind, and both at once. I'm so happy that I'm going to be spending the holidays here with you. I think it's going to be my best Christmas ever.
Noah: Growing up with my dad we didn't talk very much. But we definitely didn't talk about...
Luke: Look, look, look. It's okay. It's okay. I know I talk enough for both of us.
Noah: But there's something I need you to know.
Luke: "Luke, I wish I had your way with words, but I don’t. Thank you for never giving up on me, even when I pushed you away. Being with you has made me happier than I have ever been. Merry Christmas. Love, Noah." Do you mean that?
Noah: Every word.
Luke: So you can write it, but you can't say it?
Noah: It's not something we really grew up saying in my house. I never really felt comfortable but you have to know how I feel about you.
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Luke: When I first came out, it was fine. But I was lonely. I looked at Will and Gwen and Casey and Maddie, and I thought that is something that I'm never going to have. And not just the attraction, but, I don't know, just, just the feeling of walking into a room and having somebody who is happy to see you. You know? Not having to say everything or spell everything out. But still, having somebody who knows what you mean. And I think, I think these feelings have a word. And you don't have to say this back. You don't have to say this back. But I love you, Noah. And I'm so in love with you.
Noah: Luke, same here.
Luke: I can't possibly hurt myself dancing to this.
Noah: You think I'm a coward, don't you?
Luke: No, I don’t. And I shouldn't rag on you. You're here with me and that's enough. Really.
Noah: Hmmm.
Luke: Hmmm, what?
Noah: I was just thinking. This would be a really nice time to dance.
Luke: Yeah.
Noah: Just one question. Who leads?
Noah: Luke, I'm not as good with words as you are. If you haven't figured it out by now.
Luke: Well, actually, you know what? I think I did get that, yeah.
Noah: Shut up.
Luke: So, what's wrong with the dorm?
Noah: Nothing. I just, I thought we'd get a place together.
Luke: I said we could live together. Why is it so important to get an apartment?
Noah: Because I don't have anybody else. Okay, I don't have a home to go to over semester break. Or a family out there, rooting for me, sending me care packages. I've got you, Luke. And that's amazing, but it's also really scary. Because without you, I really am alone.
Luke: No. No, you have tons of friends.
Noah: Not like you do. You walk into a room and you're surrounded. You always attract these good people. Me, not so much.
Luke: You're just shy. But everybody loves you.
Noah: Luke, I don't like the dorms, okay? There are always people around, and I still felt lonely. But when I was with you at the farm, it felt so
good. I felt like I was part of a family. And it was a little addictive. And I guess, I feel like I want to live with you because if we're together, I won't go back to feeling how I used to. Because I'll have a family. You. And I'll be a part of something.
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Luke: I had to talk to my grandmother. We have a proposition for you.
Noah: You both do?
Luke: Yeah. How would you feel about moving to the farm permanently?
Noah: Are you serious? I can't believe this is happening. I get to live with you and I'll get a built-in family, too?
Luke: Yeah, so, is that a yes?
Noah: Yeah, yes.
Luke: Well, let's make it official.
Noah: We can do this some other time. I want this to feel right.
Luke: This isn't about my feelings for you. I love you. And I really, really want to be together.
Noah: I think about it all the time. I mean, sneaking kisses on the porch and holding hands walking around the pond is great, but you can't blame a guy for wanting more.
Luke: I want it too. So bad. But there's just so much going on with my father right now.
Noah: I know. You're right, um, your family has to come first. Um, it's cool.
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Luke: Well, okay, the thing is, I do. I do really, really, really want to be with you. Alone. And I mean, like, really alone.
Noah: We have time. When things settle down with your family, we'll know when it feels right.
Luke: You're amazing. It's like that you can read my mind. What am I thinking?
Noah: Moonlight walk around the pond?
Luke: I'm there.
Noah: Luke's one of the bravest people you'll ever meet.
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Noah: Luke was really the first guy I ever had those feelings for.
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Noah: You don't have to be related to somebody to feel like family.
Noah: I know this is tough for you. It's tough for me, too. But think about it. We can save a life here, because that's what's at stake. Hey, I know that this is a huge responsibility, but don't you think it's worth it?
Luke: Noah, just answer me one thing. Do you love me?
Noah: I love you more than you'll ever know and nothing will change that, not this marriage, not anything else.
Luke: That's all I needed to know.
Luke: It was nice to be with you again. Even if it wasn't for very long.
Noah: Yeah. I just wish it could have been longer.
Luke: Yeah. I guess this means that we're going to have to cool things again, huh?
Noah: For a while. But I promise, it won't be for too much longer.
Luke: You know I really hate this.
Noah: Yeah! So do I. You know, he could still be watching.
Luke: You know what, Noah? I can’t. I'm sorry. I can't do this right now. I just can’t. I'll see you later.
Noah: Luke?
Luke: My dad said moving here was gonna be an emotional time bomb. I'm beginning to think he's right.
Noah: Your dad didn't want you to move in?
Luke: No. But I still think we can make it work. Don't you?
Noah: Yeah, I do if you do.
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Noah: Uh, Luke, what are you doing? You can't leave. You just got here. Give this a little more time.
Luke: What difference will that make? I want to be alone with you, Noah. Not you and your wife. Just you.
Noah: She's my wife in name only. You know that.
Luke: I know! But she's still out there. And for some reason, until today, I didn't feel her presence so much. I don't know what I'm doing. I need to be alone with you.
Noah: I'm afraid that just can't happen right now.
Luke: I know that! But until it can, it's too painful to be around you. I'm leaving.
Noah: Luke, wait.
Luke: All we do is wait. For your father to accept us. For me to get better from the shooting. For Ameera to get her papers. I'm sick of waiting! I want to be alone with you right now, but I know. That can't happen. So until it can, I can't put myself in a situation that makes me feel worse than I already do.
Noah: All right, well, can I at least...?
Luke: What? Kiss me good-bye? Come on, Noah. We can't even hug. The I.C.E. might be watching.
Luke: Look, I don't know what I was thinking, moving in here with you and Ameera. And the stuff I said when I left.
Noah: You didn't say anything wrong.
Luke: Yes, I did. I made it seem like waiting for you would be the worst thing in the world. But if it meant waiting for you or not having you in my life, I would wait. I would wait forever.
Noah: You mean that?
Luke: Yes. Noah, what we have, this is real, and this is amazing, and it can survive all of this, and I am so sorry if something I said made you think otherwise.
Noah: It was my fault, too, okay? I should have made it more clear that there isn't anyone else I want in my life every day as much as you.
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Noah: My father is a sick man, and I'm not gonna let him hurt you. I'll be back as soon as I can.
Luke: I'll stay here with Ameera. Are you sure I can't get you to change your mind?
Noah: We can't be seen together. You know that. Especially going to visit my father.
Luke: Well, maybe this time it'll be different. I mean, he sent you that letter. Maybe he wants to make amends.
Noah: Luke, he killed my mother. He tried to kill you. He cannot make amends for that.
Luke: I know. Just promise me something, okay? If he tries to say things to you to try to get at you, don't let him, okay?
Noah: I won’t. I'll just think of you. You'll be my secret weapon.
Luke: I love you.
Noah: Same here.
Noah: This is a bad situation, and I'm trying to live with it as best I can, but most of the time, I'm not doing a very good job for any of us. The truth is, I don't know how to do any better.
Luke: Neither do I. But we are on the same side. We have to remember that.
Noah: I know you're just looking out for me.
Luke: Yeah. I'm not gonna stop. And if something bad happens to you because you're trying to do something good for Ameera, I couldn't live with that.
Noah: Nothing's gonna happen to me. I promise.
Luke: Well, Noah, do you realize what this means? If Ameera’s gone and she's not coming back, then everything that was keeping us apart, the hiding and the denials and the lying, that's all over.
Noah: We're free?
Luke: It's finally just us, just you and me. What we want, what we feel.
Noah: Is that why my heart's beating so fast?
Luke: Just breathe.
Noah: I'll try.
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Noah: I love you. I am so in love with you.
Noah: What do you think you're?
Luke: Hey.
Noah: Luke.
Luke: I missed you, too.
Noah: Why didn't you call, tell me you were coming?
Luke: Why don't you try checking your voice mail once in a while? No, but seriously, I think you're right. I think something fishy is going on.
Noah: Yeah, and now you're here, you're in danger, too.
Luke: Snyders don't run away from fights, especially not when their boyfriends need them.
Luke: What are you thinking?
Noah: I'm thinking that what you and I have is probably the best thing that's ever happened to me. And that I love you.
Luke: I'm glad to hear it.
Noah: And I'm sorry. Because with everything that's happened, Luke, I think I need a break.
Luke: Okay, well, that sounds good. You know, it's been a very, very stressful week. We can just get cleaned up, we can get some food. We can go out to the pond, and just...
Noah: No. No, Luke, I need to take a break from us.
Noah: Luke, I'm not good about talking things out about how I feel inside. You know that.
Luke: Oh, really? Are we back at that again? Because you really didn't seem to have that problem before we left for New York. We sat right in there, in that room, and you told me how much you loved me and that you were in love with me. Has that changed?
Noah: No.
Luke: Well, could you at least look at me when you say that?
Noah: No. It hasn't changed. I'm still in love with you.
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Luke: Who am I to you, Noah?
Noah: What?
Luke: I mean, am I just some guy? Or am I it? Am I the love of your life?
Noah: How am I supposed to know that?
Luke: I do. Because that's what you are to me.
Noah: What are these?
Luke: You're the film buff. You tell me.
Noah: "Road to Perdition" and "Godfather." Fathers that do bad things. Yeah, I got it. What's your point?
Luke: You didn't see this one.
Noah: "Luke and Dad"?
Luke: Damian Grimaldi, my birth father.
Noah: You don't talk about him very much.
Luke: Well, when I was a kid, he, uh, kidnapped me to get some thugs off his back. And when I came out, not only did he try to de-gay me, but, he lied to me and told me he was dying to get me to go back to Europe with him.
Noah: He wanted your trust fund, right?
Luke: Yeah. And I've watched those movies thousands of times. And in them, I can see how much he loved me, and I can see all of the fun times we had together. But as hard as I try, I can't see the part of him that wanted to sell me out. I can't see the greed, and I can't see the cruelty.
Noah: It's not the same as with me and my father.
Luke: Why not? Look, I know that you have very, very complicated feelings about your father, and I don't blame you for trying to find some good in him. But, Noah, whatever the Colonel was, you're not that. You don't have to polish your father's image to keep it from reflecting badly on you. Look, you are a good, decent, loving man.
Noah: But I'm still his son.
Luke: So what?! Evil's not genetic. Your father was an angry, isolated person. You don't have to be that. You deserve to be loved.
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Noah: Luke, being here doesn't feel like home anymore, okay? It does for you. You belong. You have roots here. But for me, it just reminds me that I don't belong anywhere.
Luke: Yes, you do. You belong with me.
Noah: You were right all along, Luke. We do belong together. I'm sorry things got so messed up. All I want is this.
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Luke: I can't believe that this is happening!
Noah: That I just met Cyndi Lauper?
Luke: Well, yeah, no. Yes. That's awesome, too, but I guess I was talking about us. You know, like, can you believe it? How long have we waited for this moment, and it's finally here. And this might be a first, but no one's staying at the farm tonight. I want you to come home with me.
Noah: I'm sorry, Luke. We can’t.
Luke: Why not? I just said that no one's staying at the farm tonight.
Noah: Well, that's not the problem.
Luke: Then what is? Don't you want to be with me?
Noah: More than anything, I do. It's just, I can’t. It's late. I have to go.
Luke: Go where?
Noah: I enlisted. In the army.
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Luke: I can't believe this. We can finally be together, after everything we've been through, after all the crap we were dealt, and you're leaving me.
Noah: I'm sorry, Luke. I have to. Just try and understand.
Luke: The army's not the answer, not for you. You're gay.
Noah: I'm aware of that.
Luke: So, it's the whole "Don't ask, don't tell" thing. You don't get to talk about being gay. You don't get to tell people you're gay. You don't get to act upon it.
Noah: Well, you're the only one I want to be with, so I'm not worried about acting on it. And I won't be talking about it, because that will just make me miss you more. So the whole "Don't ask, don't tell" thing, it works for me.
Luke: So you'd be fine with not putting my picture in your locker or not being able to read my letters to your friends?
Noah: Luke, it's just for a few years.
Luke: Years? God, I wish your father wasn't dead, because if he was alive and he brought this up, you would laugh in his face.
Noah: Yeah, well, you know what? He is dead, and it woke me up. I can't just go to school and make movies! I've got to do something with my life!
Luke: Yeah, but this? It's like your dad is running your life from the grave or something.
Noah: And what are you doing coming here, talking to me like I'm too stupid to make my own decisions?
Luke: No! Noah, I am terrified! I am so scared. I am so scared, it's like I can't even breathe.
Noah: Well, I'll be okay. I will. I'll be okay.
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Noah: Thank you for telling the truth.
Luke: Yeah. But the truth is that I love you. There's no truth greater than that.
Noah: She's right, you know? You are doing a good thing.
Luke: Well, thank you. But the important thing is that I'm not doing this for Damian. I'm doing this for you.
Noah: What? What do you mean?
Luke: Remember when you wanted to join the army? You said it was because you wanted to do something good with your life, you wanted to serve. So I was thinking that working for this foundation would be a way that you can get what you want. And it's a way that we can work on something together.
Noah: Luke, you know, not every relationship is destined to fail.
Luke: Maybe not in fantasy land. But in the real world, no. Happy endings don't exist. That's why romantic comedies don't have sequels. Nobody gets happily ever after.
Noah: So, is that what you think is gonna happen to us? You don't think we're meant to last?
Luke: Do you?
Noah: Yeah. Yes, I do.
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Luke: There is nothing keeping us from having sex. So why aren't we? Yeah, that's what I thought.
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Noah: Look, you know, I get where you're coming from. I do, okay, why you're questioning where we stand. I get it. But don't you know that I want to be with you, too?
Luke: Well, you never really seemed to have this problem sleeping with Maddie.
Noah: Maddie is different.
Luke: Why? Is it because she's a girl?
Noah: No. It's because she's not my happy ending. Hey, you are. What you and I have is real. It's the realest thing in my life. That's why I haven't been able to, you know, I've been kind of messed up since my dad died. I enlisted. And I don't want our first time to be when I'm like this. And I don't want it to be because we got the house to ourselves for a half an hour. Then it's about sex.
Luke: Yeah. Well, I want it to be special, too.
Noah: It will be. It is. I love you.
Luke: I love you, too.
Noah: We're gonna be together. You don't have to worry about me going anywhere, cause you and I are gonna be together for a very, very long time.
Noah: I love the way you care so much about your family. It makes me realize if you care half as much about me, I'm a pretty lucky guy.
Luke: Well, I do and you know it.
Noah: Actually, I was wondering, would you like to go on a date with me, Luke Snyder?
Luke: A date? When?
Noah: Tonight.
Luke: But you have to work early tomorrow morning.
Noah: Well, that's why it'll be an early date. One hour from now, which will give us enough time to go say hello to Aaron before we change.
Luke: Change? Like "Get dressed up all fancy" change?
Noah: It's a date.
Luke: But why?
Noah: That right there. That smile. I missed it.
Luke: Noah, he came out and said that for the sake of the foundation, we shouldn't go around "Advertising" our relationship.
Noah: Well, maybe he's right.
Luke: Of course he's right to you. Way to jump right back in the closet, Noah.
Noah: Hey, that's not cool.
Luke: Look, I know. And I'm sorry. I am. It's just, how can you be okay with this?
Noah: Because it won't change anything between us. I don't want you to quit the foundation because you're afraid it might. When Brian was telling us his ideas, you lit up in a way I really haven't seen you do before. And you can't give that up.
Luke: Yeah, but I feel that it took us so long to get to where we are.
Noah: Hey. We are still right here. Nobody can take it away.
Luke: Remember the first time I did this for you?
Noah: Of course. It was historic for me. That was the first time I ever wore a Windsor. You know, back then, I couldn't imagine a life with you, and now I can't imagine a life without you.
Luke: Well, lucky for you, Bubby, it's just beginning.
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Luke: Ahh, well, you must really love me a lot to put up with all of this.
Noah: Um, more than a lot. More than anything.
Noah: Look on the bright side. While Brian is lulling Lucinda to sleep with tales of mushrooms past, you and I will be alone together under the stars.
Luke: I like the way you think.
Noah: I like the way you do a lot of things.
To be continued....
Part 2
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