the past five years have been the craziest years of my life. the first life changing event for me was the passing of my grandmother. it effected me in a way that i never thought was possible. i went from a person that i knew, to someone i didn't even recognize. i went absolutely crazy. for me. i was once just the mildly angsty, but mostly awesome, ( Read more... )

its amazing how fast things can change. not even three months ago i wouldnt have thought that i'd be where i am now. for the past six, seven, eleven years, i've been basically complaining about how lame my life is and how i hate being alone. now here i am with a best friend, a group of friends who i love being around, and a boo face that is so ( Read more... )

so i've been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. mainly about my relationship status, or lack there of, and the reason(s) for why i am forever single. and through thinking about all of this, i think that i might have discovered a couple of things ( Read more... )

i've come to realize that i like someone every once in a blue moon (which is probably why i'm notoriously single). my latest interest i knew for a month and a half and i was smitten. didnt even know him all that well and it just made me feel better to see him. (i fall TOO fast) well now this can never be. he moved across the country. i totally and ( Read more... )

it's been what... almost exactly six months and it's finally setting in. i cant watch my so-called life or buffy without crying. i dont cant even fathom what would happen if i saw some diagnosis murder. then just typing the fact that its been six months killed me. all i wanna do is sit next to her and watch tv... enjoy just having her around. and ( Read more... )

so i'm driving down the road and i realize that i just dont feel right. like my head and heart are at war. i mean right below my chest i feel anxious. seriously... its almost as if i have butterflies. just sitting here its goin on and its constant. when my head and shit is bored and content. i have two different emotions goin on at the same time ( Read more... )

so its almost one in the morning and i'm not asleep. i should be resting up for work tomorrow, but i just dont feel like going to bed ( Read more... )

hey guys. lets see... i need a job. i always talk about it and yet i havent really done anything about it. i think it's because i might get the UPS co-op and i dont want any distractions, but i really dont think ima get it. the lady told me to fax something into her a cuz i never got my paper, but she never gave me anything to fax to her, thus i ( Read more... )

being a girl sucks

well... i figured it has been long enough since my last update, so i ought to write in it. well... its not like a bunch has happened... just a few times of going to bulldog (which nothing of any convenience came out of), staying the night ova a few friends houses... and just a few minutes ago my friend cathy came ova for a bit and then left. i ( Read more... )