what have ive been doing? a whole lot of nothing. my life isnt bad its tolerable and i like that it may never be fulfilled. i used to think that it sucks not having what i need. but lately i just don't give a fuck. i like that. if i don't care about anything i have no worries all i have to do is live. just be who i want, not give into anything that ( Read more... )

How could I sink so deep? Ill never trim the hedge only mock or break. Calling out but its impossible. Lets talk about the weather so dry but heartfelt. I here you but its all forgery. Ive never known a face with such ignorance down with those brittle spoken words. I only tell you what you deserve to here 3 short sentences. you cant hold your brass ( Read more... )

She woke with word "excelsior" on her lips. Rolling around in white rose pedals, only blood is visible. Running through the untamed crowd. Gazing at the beautiful entourage. Like a pool of dimming cells but black is all you see. Your eyelids are none but two porcelain coverings. Easily broken she tells me but the hardest part is waking. what is

i fell really hard today....

she has a beautiful smile,a great heart everything about her is what im looking for i love every minute when were close. i realize i want something, but its something i don't deserve. how can she ever consider me as even a possibility. who am i just this kid and has nothing really going for him, nothing that stands out, i live life just as any one ( Read more... )

yesterday was a very historical day for me i met possibly the most educated man about music i have ever met. his name is ryan "rockin ryan". he was in a band called the mummies back in the day and has lived to see of what the scene was when it first started and how it is today. he is core as hell and it was nuts to here is ol war stories. i met ( Read more... )

i lay down, throwing up everything i ate at this god forsaken resteraunt...i met the coolest kid today his name is tim and hes a short fat italian kid who weres a gold chain i call him cheeks and he sings opera like a mofo. tommorow im seeing the fictions play it should be funny i hope to hear body sex and see lots of feather boa's and pinatas ( Read more... )

i just got home and the first thing i see is the beautiful drawing of me as a boombastic super hero (the lawn wrangler) yes i did steal it from bottle rocket but hell. anyways drawn by the wonderful ginni man i love it as well as her <3. well schwell tomorrow, a cup of horchada in my hand, and clothes in the dryer that is the latest if you care ( Read more... )

i just realized my picture is really obnoxious.......touch it but dont touch it unless you know what it is

i went hunting yesterday with my grandpa. not for game (deer or elk) but for effin quail. we went out to the desert in search i hit 2 but somehow the managed to escape the last one i seen i hit right in the temple it was a nice shot. but it was gross. on the ride home my grandpa told me story's of when he was in a band and he wrote many songs but ( Read more... )