last year today was probably the 2nd worst day of my life. but looking back on it now it was probably one of the best things that ever happened to me.

Iv realized something: he made me lose myself.
i need to go back to the mother goddess.
i need to believe in myself again.
i miss her. and he took that away. he said no after life till i believed that.
i need her not be gone forever.
he broke me down so much, that im more fucked up then when i met him.

yesterday was my 18th birthday, thats kind of scary that im 18 and have picked a college. i rememeber sitting there on the 1st day of 2nd grade thinking wow 2nd grade time has gone by fast but ill never make it to college and here i am. were granduating sooon. and prom is soon. and im finaly getting use to the idea of not haveing a date. w/e its ( Read more... )