goin to the doctor today.. already dropped off my health card, and i've come home to wait here instead of in the creepy ass sterile waiting room at the clsc. fuck fuck ... i hate doctors.. and i feel crappy and sick about going in to beg for some tests after a 3 month binge of drinking and denial... oh well.. sometimes you gotta face the music ( Read more... )

hahahahahaha... the website for my new band the GET SETS is up on the bedbox page now, please check it out, it's so fun.. i did it with crayons and marker.. so advanced!!!!

www.bedboxtheband.com

click on the get sets link

yeah!!

it's one thirty am... i'm tired, i'm feeling sick to my stomach, and i think i might have pneumonia.. possibly. or just smoked too much today. i have to get up in 5 hours, and i'm not into that at all ( Read more... )

i didn't drink last night, but i woke up from a terrible dream bawling and alone. i've never felt so depressed. It's leaking into today.. i spent a long time writing in my journal thismorning with coffee and cigarettes and it seemed to relieve the pressure, and i made a list of what is good and what is bad. i got to 11 things bad, and 5 things ( Read more... )

okay.. so i'm hung over again.. what else is new? but i hardly drank at all last night.. wtf ( Read more... )

why can't i puke up this poison? it's way to easy to put it all in ( Read more... )

this girl i've been dating gave me the "let's be friends" bullshit line last night. i almost cried. i hardly even know her, but things had been going so well.. then i find out she's making out with some other dude the same night i did at this halloween party.. and she says, okay, well i don't know what ot tell you, let's get together on friday ( Read more... )

sittin with my bummed out friends driking beer ( Read more... )

i'm near death ( Read more... )

i can't quit smoking to save my life.. i'm an idiot.. i can't quit drinking either.. why am i so stupid ( Read more... )