I'm not dead, yet.

[oliviaslies]

I'm tring so hard but I'm oh so tempted,
I need to show I'm living
But I swear I'm not demented.
I'll tear apart my flesh as if you could not see,
All the shit that you heard
I bet you didn't believe.
You heard my color was red
Like the crimson on my lips,
You heard Jesus Christs' sign
was engraved into my hips.
I bet you didn't know that last night
I couldn'

Comments

[spuriousid]

That's rather good, especially the last couple of lines - a lovely phrase to describe a feeling I know all too well at the moment. Hope you're doing ok.

[oliviaslies]

thank you. yes i'm sorry that youre feeling that way too. pretty awful sometimes eh? i hate it. =[ but i find writing has really helped alot. its really good because im trying not to cut so this is the only way out.