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i long to die.
where the fuck am i?
SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!
no one understands.
i'm shit.
failure.
a black abyss of nothingness.
I will never mean anything to anyone.
no one will ever love me like he did.
im not good enough.
im a fucking fat whale.
i'm ugly.
id like to slice open my veins and bleed until i am no longer here.
fuck me.
stab me.
i hope i burn.
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My heart is blistering.
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A Long Walk
I love my self destruction
And I love the way I scar.
I love the way I cross the street
I'm begging now for more.
I wish that I could stop
But insanely I would be
My blood flows out my pain
And I know it's all I need.
I don't expect someone like you
To really understand
Your perfect life was sweet
And so lovely you will be.
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I'm not dead, yet.
I'm tring so hard but I'm oh so tempted,
I need to show I'm living
But I swear I'm not demented.
I'll tear apart my flesh as if you could not see,
All the shit that you heard
I bet you didn't believe.
You heard my color was red
Like the crimson on my lips,
You heard Jesus Christs' sign
was engraved into my hips.
I bet you didn't know that last night
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it's been awhile..
shit i have gotten real fuckin lazy on this thing...well actually i just havent been home at all.
summer has been boring.
i lost 5 pounds again.
im happy, but not.
i'm confused.
blah.
whatever.
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Hungry Hungry Hip Bones
My hip bones are getting a little more normal. The scar I just carved into my right hip bone is sexy as fuck and i cant wait until it completely heals. its gonna create a beautiful scar. I'm fat still. I have myself and I can't stop playing with sharp objects. I feel like a nice joint, some hard alcohol, a dildo and some hot lesbian porno...even ( Read more... ) -
Beef and cheese quesadilla with fiesta salsa, por favor.
I just fucking at taco bell. It's fucking after midnight and I ate fucking taco bell. I'm so disgusted with myself!! I was doing so well today too! lkqwrhgoiawhglewrjgo;l
Okay I need to calm down. fuck what do i do?? someone tell me what to do to keep myself from practically having a meltdown!!!!!!!!!! -
Jesus loves my hip bone, This I know.
I've had a pretty rough few days. IOP has been going really well and made really good friends with this girl named Taylor who is anorexic. She's 2 years younger than me but its pretty ridiculous how much we have in common! It's nice to have someone who is going through the same shit to because she can relate to me. I'm still feeling very lonely. My ( Read more... ) -
Blood.
0. Do you cut? Yes.
1. Who do you hide it from? My parents mostly because I don't want them to send me away or to not give me my space and freedom...and also from kids at my school because teenagers can be so cruel and make jokes about it.
2. Who knows about it? My parents and some family members and some close friends.
3. How long has it been since ( Read more... )
